心痛、痛哭

喜歡你，但不敢告訢你，因為怕失去你。
只敢在那偷偷地暗戀你。

愛上你，但不敢告訢你，因為怕失去你。
只好在那默默地去愛你。

告訢你，我喜歡你，你會同樣的喜歡我嗎？
告訢你，我愛你，你會因樣的愛我嗎？

心痛，因為你不喜歡我。
痛哭，因為你愛的不是我。

原來你一直都把我當做姊姊。
原來你一直都把我當做兄弟。

我的心痛那天才會停。
我的痛哭那天才會止。

雲消飛車

近來我的情緒就好像雲消飛車一樣，不穩固。
頭上有一塊汚雲，總是不散。
有些時候感覺得氣透不過來。

下雨天

有人喜歡下雨天，因為下雨就好像天在給大地洗澡。
但也有人愛睛天，因為睛天就好像天在給大地溫暖。

今天雨下得好大，氣溫也很快的冷下來了。
一陣陣的寒風過吹來，好像冬天是急不容緩的要來拜訪我們。
一向怕熱的我今天反而很想念那慢長的夏天。

秋天真的到了，窗外的風葉己由青翠色變成無精打采的暗黃色。
再過幾個星期，我們就要把夏令時間轉回正常的時間。
也就是說，感恩節和聖誕節會很快的就要到了。

你最喜歡的是那一個季節？
其實我最喜歡的季節是春天。 因為春天一來，寒冷的冬天就要回家睡覺。
春天一到，後園的花和鳥兒都會用不同的方式來告訢全世界春天的可愛。
我就可以把冬天那些又厚又重又黑的衣服收起來，穿上一些又輕又薄又花的裙子。

你最喜歡的是那一個節日？
你最喜歡的是那一個節日是感恩節。 因為在感恩節裡，我們可以一家大小歡歡喜喜的坐在一起數算主恩。

Birthday Celebration

The SF local choir members gave me a surprised birthday celebration/hot pot party last night. Many people came and Louise prepared all the food for us. While having hot pot, we each shared of our previous tour experience. It was very nice and everyone’s sharing brought back a lot of great memories of the last NA tour.

Before I knew it, Louise had brought out a very nice cake for me and everyone sang happy birthday to me and wished me a nice birthday. I don’t even think that I had made a wish…. but it doesn’t matter. I was very happy that I was surrounded by so many beloved. But that wasn’t the end of it; I received a very nice birthday present – a gift certificate to get a wonderful “Bliss Massage with Private Bath” at the Kabuki Springs & Spa! I was truly surprised by this. This was just too much and I was totally speechless. Thank you guys for being with me and loving me.

I have got to ask my IW sisters to go with me. It’s so cool.

Actually, I was a bit bothered last night. Because of trying to shield me from finding out there was going to be a surprised party for me, some communication problem occurred that all of us have inadvertently made someone mad. I pray that God will help those who are involved to clarify things and iron out all the wrinkles. I don’t want the hurt to remain and cause the choir to divide.

人去樓空

去老姊家整理一下ACM隊友睡過的房間。 就立刻想到幾個星期前，住在她家裡的六位戰友。

一面收床墊，一面就在回想那兩個忙忙碌碌但又過得十分充實的星期裡，心裡就充滿了感恩。

想到主給我的恩典，也給我機會在以馬內利敬拜使團 (ACM Canada) 裡參與事工，心裡就不得不讚美主對我的愛。

雖然人去樓空，心裡非常的掛念著各位好戰友。 但知道我們會在不久的將來，又會一齊共肩作戰，再為主打更美好的仗。

借以下的一首松山敬拜中心的詩歌來表達心裡的感受。

相約在主裡

我們相約在主裡，共同生活常相憶。
我們相約在主裡，將來有一天要再歡聚。
回憶過去日子裡，縱有歡笑也有淚滴。
捨不得要告訴你，在主的愛裡我等著你。

在主裡祝福你，我在主裡思念你，
願主帶領你，進入迦南地噢。
在主裡祝福你，我在主裡思念你，
願主賜給你，豐富的奶與蜜。

你可不要忘記我們相約在主裡，
記得我們相約在主裡。

A Very Happy Birthday

Mom and Dad asked me what I would like for birthday so I said I wanted a cake. This morning when I woke up, I smelled cake. Not knowing what kind of cake they had baked for me, I didn’t go into the kitchen to find out.

Mom called me in the late morning and sang the happy birthday song to me. I was really happy and then she told me that she and Dad woke up at around 5AM to bake my birthday cake for me.

I went into the kitchen and saw a very nice double-layered cake with chocolate icy sitting on top of the dining table. It was the most beautiful cake I have ever seen. Well, it’s not the most beautiful cake but “THE” most beautiful cake I have ever seen and tasted because it was baked by both of my loving parents.

I would say that this is the first birthday cake they’ve baked for me and every spoonful of it was filled with love, caring and sweetness. I am so blessed to have parents who love me so much.

Through out the day, numerous friends sent me birthday wishes and gifts via Facebook. Actually, I started receiving birthday wishes last night already and an early birthday present was sent to me last week. I had lunch with Jennie at Berkeley, Louise sent me a birthday wish text message and then Jacky called to wish me a happy birthday. Before leaving for dinner, I cooked a simply dinner for my family, they sang the happy birthday song to me again and we cut “THE” cake then I was off to a dinner with my sister Maria.

There were the newly weds (Maricela and Brigand), Mark and Maria at the dinner. It was so nice to see them again after being gone for so long. I received cards, gifts and flowers. It was just so nice and so thoughtful of them. I am so blessed to have good friends and loving family to celebrate my birthday with me.

Tomorrow night, I get to continue my birthday celebration with Isaac, Jeremiah, Ruth and Philip. I can’t wait coz Isaac has made something very special for me. I wonder what he’s made me…..

Dear God,

Thank you! Love ya...

A Thank You note to my Father

Dear Father,

I just want to write you a note to thank you for creating me. Thank you so much for creating me more than 40 years ago.

Thank you that I was born into my lovely parents’ family. Deep in my heart, I know that they have done their best in raising me. I am sure I have given them plenty of heartaches, headaches, and problems, yet they still love me just as the day that I was born. My dad keeps telling me how my big round eyes with long lashes made them a bit crazier about me then my other siblings.

Thank you for giving me lovely siblings who are always so supportive in everything that I do. Thank you that I was born in the middle so that I was given lots of room to grow and to be myself. Thank you for giving me two most precious, loving and smart nephews. Thank you that my sister and my brother-in-law allow me to love them as my own sons - minus the diapers, nursing, yelling, disciplining, and etc. Thank you for giving me cousins, uncles, aunties, grandparents and other relatives who are always so loving and encouraging to me.

Thank you for being with me for the past 40 years. You have been watching every step I took and you have been lovingly protecting me. So many times, you have sheltered me from danger and held me back when I wanted to experience danger. Your love, grace, loving kindness, passion, faithfulness, patience, mercy, goodness, and so much more have lavished upon me. I am just in awe when I think about how good you are to me.

Thank you for giving me Jesus. Thank you, Jesus, for dying on the cross for me. I do not deserve your love yet you have loved me before I was even born. Thank you for forgiving my sins against you. Thank you, Father, for Jesus’ love for me.

I have spent the 1st 20 years of my life trying to figure out who I am. I have spent the 2nd 20 years of my life living for myself. Now, I would like to live the 3rd and perhaps even the 4th 20 years of my life just for you, if it pleases you. Dad told me that my other Chinese name is “Praise” and I would like to do just that for you. I would like to praise your name and worship you all the days of my life.
Your grace has kept me alive. You could have taken me back to your bosoms when I was less than one month old but you didn’t. It is your will that I am still living.

So, Father, if it pleases you, I would like to live for you from now on. I would like to serve you full-time and keeping myself busy with you and for you. Father, you know what my needs are and I believe that you will provide those needs to me according to your time and will. I won’t be constantly bugging you about them if you haven’t put them in my heart/head first. Please be merciful to me whenever I run out of steam, get antsy or becoming an emotional wreck.

That’s all, just a simple thank you note to you to let you know that I love you. I am looking forward to see what other amazing things you have predestined for me. Thank you for being You. Thank you again for your love, grace and mercy coz you know how much I need them.

Your daughter,

You’ll be in my heart ….

I am finally home. I’ve only been gone for 12 days but it seemed much longer than that. For the past 2 weekends, I’ve been very busy with IW’s NA tour. It is hard to believe that the tour is already over. Looking back, my heart is filled with joy and I am indeed blessed.

First, I must thank God for giving me another wonderful opportunity to participate in His plan and to take part in ACM Canada. I am renewed. Once again, I gave my heart to the Lord. There are so many people that I am grateful for from this tour. So instead of naming everyone, I am going to mention just a few.

The first person that I am thankful for would be our fearless leader AA. Every time I see AA, I am encouraged and inspired. I am encouraged because of his steadfast and simple love for the Lord. I am inspired because AA’s heart is on fire when it comes to serving God.

MJL. MJL is so talented and gifted in music yet he’s so kind and humble. To me, he is my uncle within the team. Everything that comes out from his mouth is uplifting and caring. Indeed, he is dear to me.

ML & JW, my long lost sisters across the boarder. They are always by my side and they are always so witty and smart. They make me laugh and make me think. They often ask questions at early AM that I need to put on my serious thinking hat. Just like sisters, they would push me just a bit to make me a better person. So, I feel that they are my biological sisters.

My beloved PD, I love chatting with him because he is just so dear to me. He can help me see things in ways that I would never have before. I feel as though he is my twin bro. Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha…. a much cuter twin.

Last but not least, my beloved bro JF. My beloved has done so much in the past few weeks that I can’t thank the Lord enough for him. Without him, I would have had a much tougher time during the NA tour. JF has a pure heart for the Lord and he took a giant step forward to show the world that he loves the Lord. I am so proud of him. I believe that the Lord will honor his pure heart.

Personally, I received love from God through the love I got from my teammates. There is the outright easily identifiable love I have from a few and there is also the quiet and unnoticeable love I received from a few. Each is very precious and unique.

Crying like a silly girl at SeaTac, I didn’t want my beloved go. Even they are far away from me, I know that my beloved are always with me so I am not alone.

You are not alone as well because you’ll be in my heart. I love you all and I can’t wait to be with all of you again.