What to do???

If you meet someone interesting and attractive, would you inform that person that you are interested?

Would you tell someone if you like him?

Will you tell someone that you have a crush on him?

3 years. Miss you very much

Ba,

3 years ago you went Home with the Lord.

I think of you often and I miss you very much. I know you are at a better place now but I still miss you very much. Just want to let you know that I am doing good. One day I will also go to the Lord so please enjoy your time with Grandpa, Grandma and all those who are already at Home with the Lord.

Good or bad, you were the best Ba that God gave me and thank you for being my Ba and I appreciated everything that you taught me.

See you later. I love you Ba!

/GaGa

Pitch Dark

In a pitch dark tunnel
Lies, secret desires and lusts on full display
Lost, confused and deflated

My Sisters

A friend asked how come I have 7 Boy IW siblings and only 3 Girl IW siblings. Well....the story is that I already have a group of dear sisters so I can't have anymore sisters. I need some boys to balance my life. Hahaha....

Here are my dear sisters.

Younger big sister - She has the most beautiful thick hair that I so would like to have. She is intelligent and funny so I love sharing with her. She loves classical music and she is a good piano player. She is absolutely crazy about the Korean language and of course that Korean actor just like how crazy I am with Italian and Fabio Cannavaro. I don't get to see her as much but she's always on my mind because I admire her love for the Lord. She has taught me what it means to be serious with God.

Younger 2nd big sister - She is tall, thin, pretty, sweet and fun loving. She loves to eat sweets just like me. She loves her family and her friends. She is a good listener and enjoys making beautiful things. She is always willing to share and brings me the best chocolates. Children loves her because she is kind and gentle. Adults love her because makes people feel at ease. She loves to serve the Lord and she enjoys singing. She has taught me how to accept people just as how they are.

Younger 3rd sister - She is cute, tiny and full of energy. She has a big heart and has two beautiful children. Always generous to me, she is always willing to extend her helping hands whenever I am in need. She loves to share funny stories with me and she is not afraid to crack me up with some of her silly stuff. She loves the Lord and is a good and faithful servant of God which I admire. She has taught me how to agree to disagree with people.

Youngest sister - She has the cutest little dimples on her face so her gentle smile can brighten my day. Also a mother of two beautiful children, she is a good and caring sister. She provides the quite support to those around her and is always cheerful. She is smart, kind and always very encouraging to others. Youngest sister and I share a similar kind of funny sense of humor. She has taught me to trust in the Lord no matter what situation we are in.

I love my sisters in Christ very much. They have seen the worst and the best of me. We have gone through great, good and difficult times together. We have laughed, cried, joked, played, prayed, worshiped, and served together. I thank the Lord for them and I praise God for all the lessons I have learned from, with, and through them. Like iron sharpen iron, I look forward to more exciting gatherings with them.

My IW Siblings - Part II

Here are my girl IW siblings:

Younger big sister - She is tiny and she's always cold but her heart is warm and fearless. She is also smart and gentle. I admire her faith in God and how she gives it all to the Lord. She's the Queen of Lost in Toronto and I am the Queen of Lost in San Francisco so you can just imagine how much we would have when the two Queens go on a road trip. Joy (3X)! She's got cute curly hair and loves to share her beauty secrets with me. We share the similar working and serving style but she's faster and can do way more things than anyone can imagine.

Younger middle sister - She is most tiny but with the biggest heart - she's the MaMa! She takes care of the sick and will tell you when you need to stop, rest, quit or slow down. She is very sweet and kind. She likes to hold my hand when talking or sitting next to me. She cares about everyone and loves to share. She's a natural beauty and she's got the most beautiful skin. She is very talent in music and her entire being is submerged into the notes when she plays.

Youngest sister - Unlike my other girl IW siblings, she is tall. She has the sweetest smile that can brighten the gray sky and her eyes can talk. Her voice is beautiful but she likes to keep herself low-key. Always willing to help and always so ready to go the extra mile with you even when she's out of gas herself - she is quite and supportive.

I love my girl IW siblings very much. Even though they live thousands of miles away from me but are so closed to my heart. They might be younger than me but I have so much to learn from them.

My IW Siblings

I have a handful of wonderful IW siblings and each of them are so special to me.

The Boy siblings are:

Big big brother - He is very musically talented but I think he wouldn't mind singing. He is super funny and loves to sing to himself while blow-drying his super short hair. If I want to know what is trendy and popular, Big big brother will download all the 411 in a flash. I love to play and Skpye with him because he makes me laugh all the time.

Big middle brother - He is the coolest cat among my boy siblings because he knows how to enjoy life. He is energetic, warm, and he loves to smile. His smile can brighten my day so I would always look for a welcoming smile from him. I sometimes like to sit next to him whenever I need to get some coolness.

Big small brother - He is the serious brother but he is very funny in his own way. Some of the stuff he does cracks me up big time especially when he plays music. Because he seldom talks, people listen to him when he opens his mouth. He is always so kind and humble and he thinks for others before himself. His heart is so pure for God and he loves God so much. I have learned so much from him and I look up to him very much.

My twin brother - Technically he is younger than me but I feel that he is actually my twin. He is very gentle yet funny and I love talking to him. We are about the same height and we wear same shoe size. :) He's got that mischievous sparkles in his eyes and loves to tease me. Deep down, I think he loves to make me cry more than making me laugh. Very gifted in music and loves to try out different things. He reminds me most of my beloved dad and I love him most.

Younger big brother - He's as tall and big as my real brother - a giant teddy bear. And as easily overheated as I am so Younger big brother and I love the cool air. He's got a contagious smile and he is very funny. As a matter of fact, I think one of my girl siblings named him Mr. Funny. But don't be fooled by his size because he's got seriously cool dance moves. He is fun to be around with and he loves to look after his siblings.

Younger middle brother - As gentle as a dove but as sharp as an eagle, my Younger middle brother is cool. He is gifted with a beautiful voice and wisdom beyond his years. Many people look up to him and that would also include me. He loves to crack jokes, enjoys shopping and he's got a warm smile that makes everyone happy.

Youngest brother - The ROCKER I wish I was. My Youngest brother is funny and loving. He's got a big personality and wears his heart on his sleeves just like me. When he is happily rocking, I rejoice with him. When he is sad, I become sad with him. He is a sweetheart and he makes me happy.

One common factor of all of my boy siblings - they all have buzz haircuts. Hahahaha.....

Angel Smile & Lavender Honey

Angel Smile.
Those Angel Smiley big eyes.
Sweeter than Lavender Honey!

Good sisterhood.
Thank God for good sisters.
Iron sharpen iron. Edifying each other in Christ.
Bittersweet like dark chocolate!

How Deep is the Ocean

How much do I love you I'll tell you no lie
How deep is the ocean
How high is the sky

How many times a day do I think of you
How many roses are sprinkle with dew
How far would I travel to be where you are
How far is the journal from here to a star

And if I ever lost how much would I cry
How deep is the ocean
How high is the sky

I love you as deep as the ocean
I miss you as vast as the sky

Someone like Dad

Dad went home to the Lord 3 years ago and not a day goes by that I don't think of him. I miss him horribly.

My relationship with my dad was very different from my siblings' relation with him. Instead of the usual lectures or scoldings my siblings would get, dad would occasionally play checkers with me, paint with me, talk with me about religions, books he's reading, and politics. He would also share with me his problems with mom or my other siblings. Dad was my friend.

Recently, I went onto a trip and spent a lot of time with someone who looks like dad - when he has his glasses removed. I remembered how my heart jumped when I saw him for the 1st time without his glasses. This person isn't as tall or as big as dad but he is talented and gifted in his own ways - just like how dad was. Just like dad, he loves to talk and has a lot of insight about people and things. I don't see him often so whenever I do see him, I become a magnet to him. I just want to sit next to him, talk to him, share with him, stare at him or just be near him. When I must leave, I get anxious and cry as though I was leaving my own dad.

I love you my friend. Thank you for being my friend and allowing me to love you as if you are my dad. Thank you for understanding and accepting me. I hope to see you soon.

God bless you and your family & you guys are always in my prayer.

Dreams

I have been having some very strange dreams. Some I can remember as if it had really happened to me in life. Some I can't remember much except for a few very interesting fact.

It's very interesting to have dreams. Do we fall into deep sleep when we dream? Interesting.