We celebrated Christmas at Ruth & Philip’s today. We managed but sure missed dad. The kids went crazy with their presents and all the adults went crazy because the kids were running around and screaming loudly.
After everyone opened their presents, we each slowly found a warm corner and took nap. Napping was the best thing to do at a cold cloudy day….
Maria slept on the futon….
Mom slept in the kids’ tents….
Joseph took a corner in the living room….
Cindy slept in one of the guest room beds….
Ruth & Jeremiah napped together….
I slept by the windows with 2 pillows and 2 blankets….
Isaac didn’t nap – he played with his new toys.
Philip didn’t nap – he too played with his new toys.
We also got an itemized hospital bill for my father’s hospital stay. The grand total was around $210,000 for the 9-days/8-nights stay at the hospital. Thank God that dad was insured under mom’s medical coverage; we would have to sell our house to pay for his medical bill if he weren’t covered. It’s so expensive.
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Saturday, December 15, 2007
Christmas Window Shopping
After having dim sum with a sister from the local ACM choir yesterday afternoon, I went Christmas window shopping. It was fun walking around Chinatown and pretending that I was exploring Chinatown for the very first time like a tourist. It was fun. After about hour and half walking around Chinatown, I walked to SF Centre to meet up with another sister to do some serious Christmas Window Shopping. Then, I ran into the most gorgeous looking Asian guy walking down Market Street.
First glance, he’s tall (about 6-feet tall), well built (weighs about 160) and walks like a model.
Double take, he’s got thick jet black shaggy hair (perfect length – not too long and not too short), beautiful face (almond shaped eyes, nice straight nose and full lips) and speaking Korean. He looked very familiar and I think I might have seen him somewhere before. Wait…. I think I’ve seen him on TV before from that super slow Korean soup “Winter Sonata”.
So, I think I ran into Bae Yong Joon…. Or someone else who looks very much like him in SF…. Hahaha.....
First glance, he’s tall (about 6-feet tall), well built (weighs about 160) and walks like a model.
Double take, he’s got thick jet black shaggy hair (perfect length – not too long and not too short), beautiful face (almond shaped eyes, nice straight nose and full lips) and speaking Korean. He looked very familiar and I think I might have seen him somewhere before. Wait…. I think I’ve seen him on TV before from that super slow Korean soup “Winter Sonata”.
So, I think I ran into Bae Yong Joon…. Or someone else who looks very much like him in SF…. Hahaha.....
Saturday, December 8, 2007
You say vs. God says
My cousin sent me the below email to encourage me. Here it is....
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You say vs. God says
You say: "It's impossible"
God says: All things are possible = (Luke 18:27)
You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest = (Matthew 11:28-30)
You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you = (John 3:1 6 & John 3:34)
You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient = (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)
You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps = (Proverbs 3:5- 6)
You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things = (Philippians 4:13)
You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able = (II Corinthians 9:8)
You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it = (Roman 8:28)
You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I forgive you = (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
You say: "I can't manage"
God says: I will supply all your needs = (Philippians 4:19)
You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear = (II Timothy 1:7)
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on ME = (I Peter 5:7)
You say: "I'm not smart enough"
God says: I give you wisdom = (I Corinthians 1:30)
You say: "I feel all alone"
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you = (Hebrews 13:5)
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You say vs. God says
You say: "It's impossible"
God says: All things are possible = (Luke 18:27)
You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest = (Matthew 11:28-30)
You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you = (John 3:1 6 & John 3:34)
You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient = (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)
You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps = (Proverbs 3:5- 6)
You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things = (Philippians 4:13)
You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able = (II Corinthians 9:8)
You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it = (Roman 8:28)
You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I forgive you = (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
You say: "I can't manage"
God says: I will supply all your needs = (Philippians 4:19)
You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear = (II Timothy 1:7)
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on ME = (I Peter 5:7)
You say: "I'm not smart enough"
God says: I give you wisdom = (I Corinthians 1:30)
You say: "I feel all alone"
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you = (Hebrews 13:5)
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
感恩節
上個星期四是感恩節。 感恩節一向都是我最喜歡的節日。
二十九年前的感恩節主日，父母親放下自己的成就與事業，從香港移民來美國。
父親放下了浸會和港大的教書事業、母親放下了托兒所老師的事業，移民來美國，希望他們的四個兒女們會有美好的前途。
今年的感恩節非常難過。 雖然有很多親人來到我們家，很熱鬧，但我總是在找那個很久都沒有看見的背影。
感恩節飯後，大伙兒一齊照相，但我總是在找那個很久都沒有看見的大光頭。
心裡雖然是很難過，但我照樣的感謝主給了我一位愛主、愛家、愛學習的父親。
父親回天家己經一個月了。 心底裡很想念他。
二十九年前的感恩節主日，父母親放下自己的成就與事業，從香港移民來美國。
父親放下了浸會和港大的教書事業、母親放下了托兒所老師的事業，移民來美國，希望他們的四個兒女們會有美好的前途。
今年的感恩節非常難過。 雖然有很多親人來到我們家，很熱鬧，但我總是在找那個很久都沒有看見的背影。
感恩節飯後，大伙兒一齊照相，但我總是在找那個很久都沒有看見的大光頭。
心裡雖然是很難過，但我照樣的感謝主給了我一位愛主、愛家、愛學習的父親。
父親回天家己經一個月了。 心底裡很想念他。
Saturday, November 17, 2007
My beloved father
A 2-minute tribute to my late father
James Han-Sing Liu
December 20, 1932 - October 27, 2007
My father loved every single one of his children dearly. He expressed his love to each of us differently and uniquely. To me, my father was more than just my father; he was also my dear friend.
Since I am still living at home and being a “home-body”, I get to spend a lot of time with my parents, especially my father. My father and I used to sit by the kitchen table and talk. We would talk about politics, arts, music, relationships and religion. Sometimes our talks would turn into debates. Sometimes those debates would turn into arguments because we have very different view points. Sometimes those arguments would turn into fights and once in a long while our fights would last for a few days and we would avoid each other until one of us say sorry and ask for forgiveness from the other person.
My father was my biggest fan. He loved me and supported whatever I wanted to do. When I wanted to be baptized again, he honored my decision and encouraged me to do so. When I ran into painter’s block, he bought me art books, supplies, gave me painting hints and showed me special technique so that I could overcome my painter’s block. To encourage me, he even bought me an expensive easel to use. When I went onto mission trips, my father would pray for me and for my teams. Whenever I come home from my mission trips, he would wait up for me and ask me how things went for the day or for the week. He was so supportive to me that he has even mentioned me in his very last sermon.
I thank the Lord for giving me my beloved father and I praise God that I had the privilege to be one of his children. I thank Jesus for dying on the cross us. He has triumphed over death so that whoever believes in Him shall live with Him.
I miss my father very much. Even though he is no longer with us now, he is with Jesus in Heaven. He is probably talking up a storm with my dear Jesus. I know that when my turn comes to go see my Maker, my father will be standing next to my dear Lord Jesus, waiting to give me a big hug.
My father loved every single one of his children dearly. He expressed his love to each of us differently and uniquely. To me, my father was more than just my father; he was also my dear friend.
Since I am still living at home and being a “home-body”, I get to spend a lot of time with my parents, especially my father. My father and I used to sit by the kitchen table and talk. We would talk about politics, arts, music, relationships and religion. Sometimes our talks would turn into debates. Sometimes those debates would turn into arguments because we have very different view points. Sometimes those arguments would turn into fights and once in a long while our fights would last for a few days and we would avoid each other until one of us say sorry and ask for forgiveness from the other person.
My father was my biggest fan. He loved me and supported whatever I wanted to do. When I wanted to be baptized again, he honored my decision and encouraged me to do so. When I ran into painter’s block, he bought me art books, supplies, gave me painting hints and showed me special technique so that I could overcome my painter’s block. To encourage me, he even bought me an expensive easel to use. When I went onto mission trips, my father would pray for me and for my teams. Whenever I come home from my mission trips, he would wait up for me and ask me how things went for the day or for the week. He was so supportive to me that he has even mentioned me in his very last sermon.
I thank the Lord for giving me my beloved father and I praise God that I had the privilege to be one of his children. I thank Jesus for dying on the cross us. He has triumphed over death so that whoever believes in Him shall live with Him.
I miss my father very much. Even though he is no longer with us now, he is with Jesus in Heaven. He is probably talking up a storm with my dear Jesus. I know that when my turn comes to go see my Maker, my father will be standing next to my dear Lord Jesus, waiting to give me a big hug.
Friday, November 2, 2007
難過
難過.... 圓爸爸不在了。
想念.... 何時再可細談。
心中有好多話想跟你說。
很想再抱你。
很想再吻你。
很想再摸你。
再也看不到你的背影。
再也聽不到你的笑聲。
再也聽不到你的歌聲。
再也聽不到你的鼓勵。
再也吃不到你做的菜。
I miss you 爸爸。
我好miss you, 爸爸。
想念.... 何時再可細談。
心中有好多話想跟你說。
很想再抱你。
很想再吻你。
很想再摸你。
再也看不到你的背影。
再也聽不到你的笑聲。
再也聽不到你的歌聲。
再也聽不到你的鼓勵。
再也吃不到你做的菜。
I miss you 爸爸。
我好miss you, 爸爸。
Friday, October 19, 2007
心痛、痛哭
喜歡你，但不敢告訢你，因為怕失去你。
只敢在那偷偷地暗戀你。
愛上你，但不敢告訢你，因為怕失去你。
只好在那默默地去愛你。
告訢你，我喜歡你，你會同樣的喜歡我嗎？
告訢你，我愛你，你會因樣的愛我嗎？
心痛，因為你不喜歡我。
痛哭，因為你愛的不是我。
原來你一直都把我當做姊姊。
原來你一直都把我當做兄弟。
我的心痛那天才會停。
我的痛哭那天才會止。
只敢在那偷偷地暗戀你。
愛上你，但不敢告訢你，因為怕失去你。
只好在那默默地去愛你。
告訢你，我喜歡你，你會同樣的喜歡我嗎？
告訢你，我愛你，你會因樣的愛我嗎？
心痛，因為你不喜歡我。
痛哭，因為你愛的不是我。
原來你一直都把我當做姊姊。
原來你一直都把我當做兄弟。
我的心痛那天才會停。
我的痛哭那天才會止。
Friday, October 12, 2007
下雨天
有人喜歡下雨天，因為下雨就好像天在給大地洗澡。
但也有人愛睛天，因為睛天就好像天在給大地溫暖。
今天雨下得好大，氣溫也很快的冷下來了。
一陣陣的寒風過吹來，好像冬天是急不容緩的要來拜訪我們。
一向怕熱的我今天反而很想念那慢長的夏天。
秋天真的到了，窗外的風葉己由青翠色變成無精打采的暗黃色。
再過幾個星期，我們就要把夏令時間轉回正常的時間。
也就是說，感恩節和聖誕節會很快的就要到了。
你最喜歡的是那一個季節？
其實我最喜歡的季節是春天。 因為春天一來，寒冷的冬天就要回家睡覺。
春天一到，後園的花和鳥兒都會用不同的方式來告訢全世界春天的可愛。
我就可以把冬天那些又厚又重又黑的衣服收起來，穿上一些又輕又薄又花的裙子。
你最喜歡的是那一個節日？
你最喜歡的是那一個節日是感恩節。 因為在感恩節裡，我們可以一家大小歡歡喜喜的坐在一起數算主恩。
但也有人愛睛天，因為睛天就好像天在給大地溫暖。
今天雨下得好大，氣溫也很快的冷下來了。
一陣陣的寒風過吹來，好像冬天是急不容緩的要來拜訪我們。
一向怕熱的我今天反而很想念那慢長的夏天。
秋天真的到了，窗外的風葉己由青翠色變成無精打采的暗黃色。
再過幾個星期，我們就要把夏令時間轉回正常的時間。
也就是說，感恩節和聖誕節會很快的就要到了。
你最喜歡的是那一個季節？
其實我最喜歡的季節是春天。 因為春天一來，寒冷的冬天就要回家睡覺。
春天一到，後園的花和鳥兒都會用不同的方式來告訢全世界春天的可愛。
我就可以把冬天那些又厚又重又黑的衣服收起來，穿上一些又輕又薄又花的裙子。
你最喜歡的是那一個節日？
你最喜歡的是那一個節日是感恩節。 因為在感恩節裡，我們可以一家大小歡歡喜喜的坐在一起數算主恩。
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Birthday Celebration
The SF local choir members gave me a surprised birthday celebration/hot pot party last night. Many people came and Louise prepared all the food for us. While having hot pot, we each shared of our previous tour experience. It was very nice and everyone’s sharing brought back a lot of great memories of the last NA tour.
Before I knew it, Louise had brought out a very nice cake for me and everyone sang happy birthday to me and wished me a nice birthday. I don’t even think that I had made a wish…. but it doesn’t matter. I was very happy that I was surrounded by so many beloved. But that wasn’t the end of it; I received a very nice birthday present – a gift certificate to get a wonderful “Bliss Massage with Private Bath” at the Kabuki Springs & Spa! I was truly surprised by this. This was just too much and I was totally speechless. Thank you guys for being with me and loving me.
I have got to ask my IW sisters to go with me. It’s so cool.
Actually, I was a bit bothered last night. Because of trying to shield me from finding out there was going to be a surprised party for me, some communication problem occurred that all of us have inadvertently made someone mad. I pray that God will help those who are involved to clarify things and iron out all the wrinkles. I don’t want the hurt to remain and cause the choir to divide.
Before I knew it, Louise had brought out a very nice cake for me and everyone sang happy birthday to me and wished me a nice birthday. I don’t even think that I had made a wish…. but it doesn’t matter. I was very happy that I was surrounded by so many beloved. But that wasn’t the end of it; I received a very nice birthday present – a gift certificate to get a wonderful “Bliss Massage with Private Bath” at the Kabuki Springs & Spa! I was truly surprised by this. This was just too much and I was totally speechless. Thank you guys for being with me and loving me.
I have got to ask my IW sisters to go with me. It’s so cool.
Actually, I was a bit bothered last night. Because of trying to shield me from finding out there was going to be a surprised party for me, some communication problem occurred that all of us have inadvertently made someone mad. I pray that God will help those who are involved to clarify things and iron out all the wrinkles. I don’t want the hurt to remain and cause the choir to divide.
Friday, October 5, 2007
人去樓空
去老姊家整理一下ACM隊友睡過的房間。 就立刻想到幾個星期前，住在她家裡的六位戰友。
一面收床墊，一面就在回想那兩個忙忙碌碌但又過得十分充實的星期裡，心裡就充滿了感恩。
想到主給我的恩典，也給我機會在以馬內利敬拜使團 (ACM Canada) 裡參與事工，心裡就不得不讚美主對我的愛。
雖然人去樓空，心裡非常的掛念著各位好戰友。 但知道我們會在不久的將來，又會一齊共肩作戰，再為主打更美好的仗。
借以下的一首松山敬拜中心的詩歌來表達心裡的感受。
相約在主裡
我們相約在主裡，共同生活常相憶。
我們相約在主裡，將來有一天要再歡聚。
回憶過去日子裡，縱有歡笑也有淚滴。
捨不得要告訴你，在主的愛裡我等著你。
在主裡祝福你，我在主裡思念你，
願主帶領你，進入迦南地噢。
在主裡祝福你，我在主裡思念你，
願主賜給你，豐富的奶與蜜。
你可不要忘記我們相約在主裡，
記得我們相約在主裡。
一面收床墊，一面就在回想那兩個忙忙碌碌但又過得十分充實的星期裡，心裡就充滿了感恩。
想到主給我的恩典，也給我機會在以馬內利敬拜使團 (ACM Canada) 裡參與事工，心裡就不得不讚美主對我的愛。
雖然人去樓空，心裡非常的掛念著各位好戰友。 但知道我們會在不久的將來，又會一齊共肩作戰，再為主打更美好的仗。
借以下的一首松山敬拜中心的詩歌來表達心裡的感受。
相約在主裡
我們相約在主裡，共同生活常相憶。
我們相約在主裡，將來有一天要再歡聚。
回憶過去日子裡，縱有歡笑也有淚滴。
捨不得要告訴你，在主的愛裡我等著你。
在主裡祝福你，我在主裡思念你，
願主帶領你，進入迦南地噢。
在主裡祝福你，我在主裡思念你，
願主賜給你，豐富的奶與蜜。
你可不要忘記我們相約在主裡，
記得我們相約在主裡。
Thursday, October 4, 2007
A Very Happy Birthday
Mom and Dad asked me what I would like for birthday so I said I wanted a cake. This morning when I woke up, I smelled cake. Not knowing what kind of cake they had baked for me, I didn’t go into the kitchen to find out.
Mom called me in the late morning and sang the happy birthday song to me. I was really happy and then she told me that she and Dad woke up at around 5AM to bake my birthday cake for me.
I went into the kitchen and saw a very nice double-layered cake with chocolate icy sitting on top of the dining table. It was the most beautiful cake I have ever seen. Well, it’s not the most beautiful cake but “THE” most beautiful cake I have ever seen and tasted because it was baked by both of my loving parents.
I would say that this is the first birthday cake they’ve baked for me and every spoonful of it was filled with love, caring and sweetness. I am so blessed to have parents who love me so much.
Through out the day, numerous friends sent me birthday wishes and gifts via Facebook. Actually, I started receiving birthday wishes last night already and an early birthday present was sent to me last week. I had lunch with Jennie at Berkeley, Louise sent me a birthday wish text message and then Jacky called to wish me a happy birthday. Before leaving for dinner, I cooked a simply dinner for my family, they sang the happy birthday song to me again and we cut “THE” cake then I was off to a dinner with my sister Maria.
There were the newly weds (Maricela and Brigand), Mark and Maria at the dinner. It was so nice to see them again after being gone for so long. I received cards, gifts and flowers. It was just so nice and so thoughtful of them. I am so blessed to have good friends and loving family to celebrate my birthday with me.
Tomorrow night, I get to continue my birthday celebration with Isaac, Jeremiah, Ruth and Philip. I can’t wait coz Isaac has made something very special for me. I wonder what he’s made me…..
Dear God,
Thank you! Love ya...
Mom called me in the late morning and sang the happy birthday song to me. I was really happy and then she told me that she and Dad woke up at around 5AM to bake my birthday cake for me.
I went into the kitchen and saw a very nice double-layered cake with chocolate icy sitting on top of the dining table. It was the most beautiful cake I have ever seen. Well, it’s not the most beautiful cake but “THE” most beautiful cake I have ever seen and tasted because it was baked by both of my loving parents.
I would say that this is the first birthday cake they’ve baked for me and every spoonful of it was filled with love, caring and sweetness. I am so blessed to have parents who love me so much.
Through out the day, numerous friends sent me birthday wishes and gifts via Facebook. Actually, I started receiving birthday wishes last night already and an early birthday present was sent to me last week. I had lunch with Jennie at Berkeley, Louise sent me a birthday wish text message and then Jacky called to wish me a happy birthday. Before leaving for dinner, I cooked a simply dinner for my family, they sang the happy birthday song to me again and we cut “THE” cake then I was off to a dinner with my sister Maria.
There were the newly weds (Maricela and Brigand), Mark and Maria at the dinner. It was so nice to see them again after being gone for so long. I received cards, gifts and flowers. It was just so nice and so thoughtful of them. I am so blessed to have good friends and loving family to celebrate my birthday with me.
Tomorrow night, I get to continue my birthday celebration with Isaac, Jeremiah, Ruth and Philip. I can’t wait coz Isaac has made something very special for me. I wonder what he’s made me…..
Dear God,
Thank you! Love ya...
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
A Thank You note to my Father
Dear Father,
I just want to write you a note to thank you for creating me. Thank you so much for creating me more than 40 years ago.
Thank you that I was born into my lovely parents’ family. Deep in my heart, I know that they have done their best in raising me. I am sure I have given them plenty of heartaches, headaches, and problems, yet they still love me just as the day that I was born. My dad keeps telling me how my big round eyes with long lashes made them a bit crazier about me then my other siblings.
Thank you for giving me lovely siblings who are always so supportive in everything that I do. Thank you that I was born in the middle so that I was given lots of room to grow and to be myself. Thank you for giving me two most precious, loving and smart nephews. Thank you that my sister and my brother-in-law allow me to love them as my own sons - minus the diapers, nursing, yelling, disciplining, and etc. Thank you for giving me cousins, uncles, aunties, grandparents and other relatives who are always so loving and encouraging to me.
Thank you for being with me for the past 40 years. You have been watching every step I took and you have been lovingly protecting me. So many times, you have sheltered me from danger and held me back when I wanted to experience danger. Your love, grace, loving kindness, passion, faithfulness, patience, mercy, goodness, and so much more have lavished upon me. I am just in awe when I think about how good you are to me.
Thank you for giving me Jesus. Thank you, Jesus, for dying on the cross for me. I do not deserve your love yet you have loved me before I was even born. Thank you for forgiving my sins against you. Thank you, Father, for Jesus’ love for me.
I have spent the 1st 20 years of my life trying to figure out who I am. I have spent the 2nd 20 years of my life living for myself. Now, I would like to live the 3rd and perhaps even the 4th 20 years of my life just for you, if it pleases you. Dad told me that my other Chinese name is “Praise” and I would like to do just that for you. I would like to praise your name and worship you all the days of my life.
Your grace has kept me alive. You could have taken me back to your bosoms when I was less than one month old but you didn’t. It is your will that I am still living.
So, Father, if it pleases you, I would like to live for you from now on. I would like to serve you full-time and keeping myself busy with you and for you. Father, you know what my needs are and I believe that you will provide those needs to me according to your time and will. I won’t be constantly bugging you about them if you haven’t put them in my heart/head first. Please be merciful to me whenever I run out of steam, get antsy or becoming an emotional wreck.
That’s all, just a simple thank you note to you to let you know that I love you. I am looking forward to see what other amazing things you have predestined for me. Thank you for being You. Thank you again for your love, grace and mercy coz you know how much I need them.
Your daughter,
I just want to write you a note to thank you for creating me. Thank you so much for creating me more than 40 years ago.
Thank you that I was born into my lovely parents’ family. Deep in my heart, I know that they have done their best in raising me. I am sure I have given them plenty of heartaches, headaches, and problems, yet they still love me just as the day that I was born. My dad keeps telling me how my big round eyes with long lashes made them a bit crazier about me then my other siblings.
Thank you for giving me lovely siblings who are always so supportive in everything that I do. Thank you that I was born in the middle so that I was given lots of room to grow and to be myself. Thank you for giving me two most precious, loving and smart nephews. Thank you that my sister and my brother-in-law allow me to love them as my own sons - minus the diapers, nursing, yelling, disciplining, and etc. Thank you for giving me cousins, uncles, aunties, grandparents and other relatives who are always so loving and encouraging to me.
Thank you for being with me for the past 40 years. You have been watching every step I took and you have been lovingly protecting me. So many times, you have sheltered me from danger and held me back when I wanted to experience danger. Your love, grace, loving kindness, passion, faithfulness, patience, mercy, goodness, and so much more have lavished upon me. I am just in awe when I think about how good you are to me.
Thank you for giving me Jesus. Thank you, Jesus, for dying on the cross for me. I do not deserve your love yet you have loved me before I was even born. Thank you for forgiving my sins against you. Thank you, Father, for Jesus’ love for me.
I have spent the 1st 20 years of my life trying to figure out who I am. I have spent the 2nd 20 years of my life living for myself. Now, I would like to live the 3rd and perhaps even the 4th 20 years of my life just for you, if it pleases you. Dad told me that my other Chinese name is “Praise” and I would like to do just that for you. I would like to praise your name and worship you all the days of my life.
Your grace has kept me alive. You could have taken me back to your bosoms when I was less than one month old but you didn’t. It is your will that I am still living.
So, Father, if it pleases you, I would like to live for you from now on. I would like to serve you full-time and keeping myself busy with you and for you. Father, you know what my needs are and I believe that you will provide those needs to me according to your time and will. I won’t be constantly bugging you about them if you haven’t put them in my heart/head first. Please be merciful to me whenever I run out of steam, get antsy or becoming an emotional wreck.
That’s all, just a simple thank you note to you to let you know that I love you. I am looking forward to see what other amazing things you have predestined for me. Thank you for being You. Thank you again for your love, grace and mercy coz you know how much I need them.
Your daughter,
Monday, October 1, 2007
You’ll be in my heart ….
I am finally home. I’ve only been gone for 12 days but it seemed much longer than that. For the past 2 weekends, I’ve been very busy with IW’s NA tour. It is hard to believe that the tour is already over. Looking back, my heart is filled with joy and I am indeed blessed.
First, I must thank God for giving me another wonderful opportunity to participate in His plan and to take part in ACM Canada. I am renewed. Once again, I gave my heart to the Lord. There are so many people that I am grateful for from this tour. So instead of naming everyone, I am going to mention just a few.
The first person that I am thankful for would be our fearless leader AA. Every time I see AA, I am encouraged and inspired. I am encouraged because of his steadfast and simple love for the Lord. I am inspired because AA’s heart is on fire when it comes to serving God.
MJL. MJL is so talented and gifted in music yet he’s so kind and humble. To me, he is my uncle within the team. Everything that comes out from his mouth is uplifting and caring. Indeed, he is dear to me.
ML & JW, my long lost sisters across the boarder. They are always by my side and they are always so witty and smart. They make me laugh and make me think. They often ask questions at early AM that I need to put on my serious thinking hat. Just like sisters, they would push me just a bit to make me a better person. So, I feel that they are my biological sisters.
My beloved PD, I love chatting with him because he is just so dear to me. He can help me see things in ways that I would never have before. I feel as though he is my twin bro. Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha…. a much cuter twin.
Last but not least, my beloved bro JF. My beloved has done so much in the past few weeks that I can’t thank the Lord enough for him. Without him, I would have had a much tougher time during the NA tour. JF has a pure heart for the Lord and he took a giant step forward to show the world that he loves the Lord. I am so proud of him. I believe that the Lord will honor his pure heart.
Personally, I received love from God through the love I got from my teammates. There is the outright easily identifiable love I have from a few and there is also the quiet and unnoticeable love I received from a few. Each is very precious and unique.
Crying like a silly girl at SeaTac, I didn’t want my beloved go. Even they are far away from me, I know that my beloved are always with me so I am not alone.
You are not alone as well because you’ll be in my heart. I love you all and I can’t wait to be with all of you again.
First, I must thank God for giving me another wonderful opportunity to participate in His plan and to take part in ACM Canada. I am renewed. Once again, I gave my heart to the Lord. There are so many people that I am grateful for from this tour. So instead of naming everyone, I am going to mention just a few.
The first person that I am thankful for would be our fearless leader AA. Every time I see AA, I am encouraged and inspired. I am encouraged because of his steadfast and simple love for the Lord. I am inspired because AA’s heart is on fire when it comes to serving God.
MJL. MJL is so talented and gifted in music yet he’s so kind and humble. To me, he is my uncle within the team. Everything that comes out from his mouth is uplifting and caring. Indeed, he is dear to me.
ML & JW, my long lost sisters across the boarder. They are always by my side and they are always so witty and smart. They make me laugh and make me think. They often ask questions at early AM that I need to put on my serious thinking hat. Just like sisters, they would push me just a bit to make me a better person. So, I feel that they are my biological sisters.
My beloved PD, I love chatting with him because he is just so dear to me. He can help me see things in ways that I would never have before. I feel as though he is my twin bro. Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha…. a much cuter twin.
Last but not least, my beloved bro JF. My beloved has done so much in the past few weeks that I can’t thank the Lord enough for him. Without him, I would have had a much tougher time during the NA tour. JF has a pure heart for the Lord and he took a giant step forward to show the world that he loves the Lord. I am so proud of him. I believe that the Lord will honor his pure heart.
Personally, I received love from God through the love I got from my teammates. There is the outright easily identifiable love I have from a few and there is also the quiet and unnoticeable love I received from a few. Each is very precious and unique.
Crying like a silly girl at SeaTac, I didn’t want my beloved go. Even they are far away from me, I know that my beloved are always with me so I am not alone.
You are not alone as well because you’ll be in my heart. I love you all and I can’t wait to be with all of you again.
Friday, September 28, 2007
Clouds, wind and rain
When would the rain stop? When would the clouds go away? When would the wind calm?
I long to see the blue sky.....
Things are muddy.
I long to see the blue sky.....
Things are muddy.
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Honey or sugar substitute
Disturbance
People
Street lights
Barking dogs
Screaming children
Uncertainty
Message sent across the airwave
Ambiguously sent
Receiver reading wrong message
Different tone
Avoidance
Honey or sugar substitute
People
Street lights
Barking dogs
Screaming children
Uncertainty
Message sent across the airwave
Ambiguously sent
Receiver reading wrong message
Different tone
Avoidance
Honey or sugar substitute
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Feeling strange
Feeling a bit strange today and I don't know how to describe it
Something is not right and I can't identify it
The water looks so calm and smooth
So what is stirring up under the calm water
Tenderness is masked
Talking eyes are silenced
Gate is shut
Key is gone
Something is not right and I can't identify it
The water looks so calm and smooth
So what is stirring up under the calm water
Tenderness is masked
Talking eyes are silenced
Gate is shut
Key is gone
Saturday, September 8, 2007
What do you have?
Monday, I’ll be picking up a sister from Louisiana then head straight to our local choir’s final practice. Things are almost all done with a few more detail to iron out. On Thursday, the rest of the gang would be coming from different corners of the NA.
Personally, I am a bit on the edge and feeling a bit edgy. Perhaps this is a happy edgy feeling because things are finally coming down the wire after many months of praying, planning, and witnessing how everything is being taken care of by the Lord.
So far, this has been a rather interesting journey.
There are some personal issues that I am dealing with right now. Some of them, I can and need do something about. Others, I can only wait for the Lord.
While I am waiting for the Lord, I shall enjoy what He has given me and enjoy His grace.
He’s given me most supportive parents and siblings.
He’s given me two most adorable nephews.
He’s given me friends, siblings in Christ, a wonderful agency to serve Him, a great and nurturing church.
He is sustaining my body with His grace.
Most importantly, He’s given me Christ.
My Lord knows me and He will provide. My soul waits for the Lord.
Personally, I am a bit on the edge and feeling a bit edgy. Perhaps this is a happy edgy feeling because things are finally coming down the wire after many months of praying, planning, and witnessing how everything is being taken care of by the Lord.
So far, this has been a rather interesting journey.
There are some personal issues that I am dealing with right now. Some of them, I can and need do something about. Others, I can only wait for the Lord.
While I am waiting for the Lord, I shall enjoy what He has given me and enjoy His grace.
He’s given me most supportive parents and siblings.
He’s given me two most adorable nephews.
He’s given me friends, siblings in Christ, a wonderful agency to serve Him, a great and nurturing church.
He is sustaining my body with His grace.
Most importantly, He’s given me Christ.
My Lord knows me and He will provide. My soul waits for the Lord.
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
Smile = I love you
Do you smile at strangers on the street? Do you smile at your family members? Do you smile at your friends? Do you smile at the little children you see at your local grocery store?
I’ve heard from someone that when a child sees your non-smiling face, that child would think that he’s done something wrong so that you are very unhappy with him. Is it really true? What were you like when you were a child? How was your relationship with your parents? As I think back, I remembered how much I feared my father and how much more I loved my mother.
I feared my father because he looked so serious all the time and he didn’t spend time with me. I realize now that he looked so serious to me when I was a child because he worried about his work and he was preoccupied about the projects he had to finish. He didn’t spend time with me because he was so tired from teaching long hours and exhausted from working his students.
I loved my mother so much more than my father because she was always smiling at me and she spent time with me. I realize now that she was always smiling at me because she didn’t bring her worries home from work and she was happy to be at home with us. She spent time with me because that would be the only way that I would leave my father along so that he could prepare his teaching lessons and correct papers.
My father loved me just as much as my mother did and their love for me is still the same today. But because he didn’t smile at me a lot, I associated his seriousness with how I must have seemed to him. I would always think that I must have done something wrong thus causing him to be very unhappy with me. Truth is that I was totally wrong. Oh, my poor little me. If I only knew, I would have been so happy.
As for me, I have decided that I would always smile at my beloved nephews because they are the apples of my eyes.
I’ve heard from someone that when a child sees your non-smiling face, that child would think that he’s done something wrong so that you are very unhappy with him. Is it really true? What were you like when you were a child? How was your relationship with your parents? As I think back, I remembered how much I feared my father and how much more I loved my mother.
I feared my father because he looked so serious all the time and he didn’t spend time with me. I realize now that he looked so serious to me when I was a child because he worried about his work and he was preoccupied about the projects he had to finish. He didn’t spend time with me because he was so tired from teaching long hours and exhausted from working his students.
I loved my mother so much more than my father because she was always smiling at me and she spent time with me. I realize now that she was always smiling at me because she didn’t bring her worries home from work and she was happy to be at home with us. She spent time with me because that would be the only way that I would leave my father along so that he could prepare his teaching lessons and correct papers.
My father loved me just as much as my mother did and their love for me is still the same today. But because he didn’t smile at me a lot, I associated his seriousness with how I must have seemed to him. I would always think that I must have done something wrong thus causing him to be very unhappy with me. Truth is that I was totally wrong. Oh, my poor little me. If I only knew, I would have been so happy.
As for me, I have decided that I would always smile at my beloved nephews because they are the apples of my eyes.
Smile! I love you!
Friday, August 31, 2007
Hanging out with Bert
My real biological grandmother is in Taiwan and I don't get to see her as often as I wish so I adopted myself a spiritual grandmother, Bert, here in the East Bay.
Bert is about 78 years old, about 5 foot tall and very sweet to me. I first met her at church, perhaps the 2nd or the 3rd time I was there. She would always sit by herself and so I just decided to talk to her one day after church. We got to talk more and we started having lunches after church. We talk a lot, share a lot, pray together, and laugh at each other sometimes. It's all fun. Then one day, I told her that since my biological grandmother is in Taiwan and I don't get to see her as often as I wish, I will adopt her as my grandmother here in the US and at church.
At the beginning of this year, Bert got sick and surgery was needed. Her surgery went well but her recovery time took a lot longer than she had hoped for. After months of treatments and staying at home for a long time, Bert and I finally ventured out with the help of her walker.
So, I spent a few hours hanging out with my adopted grandmother today. We had lunch together and we even chatted for a while after lunch at her home. I even met her son, daughter-in-law, grandsons and even her great-grandsons. Hers is a very nice and loving family and I thank God for allowing me to have an adopted grandmother here in the US.
It's been so hot lately that I haven't been sleeping well. Because I am not getting enough sleep, I am bossy and feeling a bit cranky. I think I might have chewed someone's head off today. Hey, you who got your head chewed off today, sorry. I didn't mean to be cranky on you today. Thank you for trying to calm me down.
Thank the Lord for caring and loving friends.
Bert is about 78 years old, about 5 foot tall and very sweet to me. I first met her at church, perhaps the 2nd or the 3rd time I was there. She would always sit by herself and so I just decided to talk to her one day after church. We got to talk more and we started having lunches after church. We talk a lot, share a lot, pray together, and laugh at each other sometimes. It's all fun. Then one day, I told her that since my biological grandmother is in Taiwan and I don't get to see her as often as I wish, I will adopt her as my grandmother here in the US and at church.
At the beginning of this year, Bert got sick and surgery was needed. Her surgery went well but her recovery time took a lot longer than she had hoped for. After months of treatments and staying at home for a long time, Bert and I finally ventured out with the help of her walker.
So, I spent a few hours hanging out with my adopted grandmother today. We had lunch together and we even chatted for a while after lunch at her home. I even met her son, daughter-in-law, grandsons and even her great-grandsons. Hers is a very nice and loving family and I thank God for allowing me to have an adopted grandmother here in the US.
It's been so hot lately that I haven't been sleeping well. Because I am not getting enough sleep, I am bossy and feeling a bit cranky. I think I might have chewed someone's head off today. Hey, you who got your head chewed off today, sorry. I didn't mean to be cranky on you today. Thank you for trying to calm me down.
Thank the Lord for caring and loving friends.
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
你呢？
有個朋友生病，進了醫院，她身傍的一位異性好友為她十分緊張。
另一好友有病，卻不想看病，令她身傍的好友們都為她十分緊張。
有些人，怕看醫生。 有些人，不怕看醫生。 你呢？
有一些人對身傍朋友的近况十分清楚，瞭如指掌。
又有人對身傍的朋友滿不在乎，對他人若無其事。
有些人重視朋友。 有些人卻自私自利。 你呢？
今天下午收到了一通妹妹打來的電話。 在電話裡，她跟我分享了一些令她很煩擾、又心痛的事情。 她有一位非常要好的朋友快要結婚了。 新娘不但沒有請她去當伴娘，卻請了她的世仇去當伴娘。 這件事情令她非常生氣，也令她對她的非常好友十分失望。
最近心情比較勁。 心情差是因為我開始感受到從四面八方來的壓力。
求主帶領我，讓我的心與眼睛都集中於耶穌。 不要允許四面八方來的攻擊，使我分心，煩亂我的焦點。
另一好友有病，卻不想看病，令她身傍的好友們都為她十分緊張。
有些人，怕看醫生。 有些人，不怕看醫生。 你呢？
有一些人對身傍朋友的近况十分清楚，瞭如指掌。
又有人對身傍的朋友滿不在乎，對他人若無其事。
有些人重視朋友。 有些人卻自私自利。 你呢？
今天下午收到了一通妹妹打來的電話。 在電話裡，她跟我分享了一些令她很煩擾、又心痛的事情。 她有一位非常要好的朋友快要結婚了。 新娘不但沒有請她去當伴娘，卻請了她的世仇去當伴娘。 這件事情令她非常生氣，也令她對她的非常好友十分失望。
最近心情比較勁。 心情差是因為我開始感受到從四面八方來的壓力。
求主帶領我，讓我的心與眼睛都集中於耶穌。 不要允許四面八方來的攻擊，使我分心，煩亂我的焦點。
Friday, August 17, 2007
Antique Keys
I love antique keys. There’s something romantic, mysterious, and unique about antique keys. Most antique keys are of European and very seldom an Asian antique key would surface. Frankly, I have never seen an Asian antique key.
My first encounter with an European antique key was at one of my many visits to Italy. At one of the overnight stay, we checked into a very nice yet small hotel at Assisi. Most European hotels are small with small sleeping rooms san bathrooms. If a room comes with a bathroom then the bathroom is the tiniest.
At the Guest Check-In, a very handsome older Italian gentleman handed me one of the most beautiful antique key to open the door to my sleeping room. This key was probably made of iron because it was heavy. The key was about two inches wide at the top handle. The body was about four inches long and its end was about ¾ of an inch wide, like a tiny flag. The top handle was shaped like a tiny beautifully made crown and the key end looked like a gorgeous Gucci stiletto.
There I was, holding this beautiful antique key and ready to open my tiny hotel sleeping room. I knew my room was going to be small because most European hotel sleeping rooms were small. I also knew that it was going to be hot because Italians turned off their A/C system in October even when the outside average temperature was still in the 80’s.
After a few quick turns, I opened a heavy wooden door to my sleeping room. Yes, the room was small but it was beautifully decorated and it was long and narrow, about 10’x5’. The room was dark because everything in it was espresso mahogany wood. There were the basics, a small twin bed sat against the left long wall, a small antique desk with an art deco style desk lamp, and a small armoire, all sat on top of this cool, smooth, and beautiful black & white marble floor. Yes, there was even the tiniest bathroom to the left of my room, next to the end of my bed. What surprised me most about my room was the giant floor to ceiling window with crisp white linen curtains and espresso mahogany shutters.
I took off my shoes, sat my bags on the floor, pulled aside the curtains, adjusted the shutters, and pushed open the window. What a surprise! I was the luckiest girl in Italy that evening. Yes, I was also the happiest girl living in Italy that evening because nothing can make a girl happier than to have a room with a balcony overlooking the piazza.
Yes, I had a room with a view.
La Dolce Vita!
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Back To Normal
Things are finally back to normal after Wilson has left for Taiwan and I have returned from my short trip down to LA.
Wilson went back to Taiwan on the 9th of August. It was sad to see him go because I enjoyed his company very much. Yeah, he had to go home. Yeah, he cried when he said goodbye to me. He also cried when he said goodbye to Mom and Dad. He's such a sweetheart.
Right after Wilson left for Taiwan, I went down to LA to meet with Alfred, visited San Diego SeaWorld with his family and hung out with Charlotte, Catherine and Omelia down in LA. It was fun hanging out with the Chans and cooking dinners with the ladies.
It's all good. I had a good time. Just need to get better and get over this cold thingee now.
Oh, Korean food is good...
Wilson went back to Taiwan on the 9th of August. It was sad to see him go because I enjoyed his company very much. Yeah, he had to go home. Yeah, he cried when he said goodbye to me. He also cried when he said goodbye to Mom and Dad. He's such a sweetheart.
Right after Wilson left for Taiwan, I went down to LA to meet with Alfred, visited San Diego SeaWorld with his family and hung out with Charlotte, Catherine and Omelia down in LA. It was fun hanging out with the Chans and cooking dinners with the ladies.
It's all good. I had a good time. Just need to get better and get over this cold thingee now.
Oh, Korean food is good...
Monday, August 13, 2007
Three Years Later
I finally saw him tonight and it has been exactly 3 years since I last saw him.
Yesterday was his wedding and today I ran into him in front of the church bookstore.
I was on my way to the church bookstore when I saw him. He was standing next to his new wife right by a post talking with friends. He saw me as I was walking towards the bookstore and he smiled at me. He looked very surprised to see me. He continued to smile at me and I smiled back. But I continued to walk, I walked right by him with a smile on my face and with my head up.
Yes, I walked right by him and straight into the bookstore as if I didn't see him and as if I was smiling at some other people.
It does not hurt anymore. The pain is finally gone. I walked right by him as if I have never met him before.
Yes, it is finally over. I am over him now.
Yes, he got married yesterday and I was not his bride......
Yesterday was his wedding and today I ran into him in front of the church bookstore.
I was on my way to the church bookstore when I saw him. He was standing next to his new wife right by a post talking with friends. He saw me as I was walking towards the bookstore and he smiled at me. He looked very surprised to see me. He continued to smile at me and I smiled back. But I continued to walk, I walked right by him with a smile on my face and with my head up.
Yes, I walked right by him and straight into the bookstore as if I didn't see him and as if I was smiling at some other people.
It does not hurt anymore. The pain is finally gone. I walked right by him as if I have never met him before.
Yes, it is finally over. I am over him now.
Yes, he got married yesterday and I was not his bride......
Tuesday, August 7, 2007
Annoyed or pissed
A friend told me earlier this evening that I sounded like I was annoyed or pissed over the phone to him.
I was not annoyed nor was I pissed. I was just sharing with him that certain things were finally settled. Perhaps I was sounding a bit tired because I had spent a long time with the boys and I was getting very tired. I don't know. But I was not annoyed nor pissed.
I really appreciate this brother taking time out to share with me how he felt, how he saw things, and that he was concerned about me and didn't want me to worry too much.
Thanks bro! I wish I could give you a hug coz I really appreciate your caring.
Thank you Lord for giving me caring brothers & sisters.
I was not annoyed nor was I pissed. I was just sharing with him that certain things were finally settled. Perhaps I was sounding a bit tired because I had spent a long time with the boys and I was getting very tired. I don't know. But I was not annoyed nor pissed.
I really appreciate this brother taking time out to share with me how he felt, how he saw things, and that he was concerned about me and didn't want me to worry too much.
Thanks bro! I wish I could give you a hug coz I really appreciate your caring.
Thank you Lord for giving me caring brothers & sisters.
Napa
This morning started out with a “Bang” because I was awoken by Dad’s screaming voice. Well, it turned out that he got stung about 5 times by some yellow jackets while he was working in the backyard earlier. After taken some medication and applied some honey on his legs and head, he felt better, fell asleep and so Wilson, Ke and I went out.
Originally, I had planned on taking them to have some Cantonese breakfast. Since I needed to stay home and take care of Dad, Joseph took them out go Taco Bell, again! These boys love Taco Bell.
Originally, I had planned on taking them to have some Cantonese breakfast. Since I needed to stay home and take care of Dad, Joseph took them out go Taco Bell, again! These boys love Taco Bell.
We arrived at Napa at around 12PM and we toured 3 different wineries. It was a very nice day today and it wasn’t hot at all. It was fun hanging out with them coz they are so young and so fresh. After visiting the 3 different wineries, we went to V. Sattui for a picnic lunch. It was nice and they boys ate a lot of food. Actually, there weren’t enough bread for them….
Before coming back home, we stopped by the Napa Outlet and Wilson went crazy at Timberland. He’s crazy about Timberland so he purchased 2 pairs of boots. Ke also got a pair of boots for his father.
It was fun. I am going to miss them boys when they head home tomorrow night.
Before coming back home, we stopped by the Napa Outlet and Wilson went crazy at Timberland. He’s crazy about Timberland so he purchased 2 pairs of boots. Ke also got a pair of boots for his father.
It was fun. I am going to miss them boys when they head home tomorrow night.
Monday, August 6, 2007
Pot Stickers Making Dinner Party
Last night we made pot stickers. Maria and Mark went grocery shopping and everyone got home at around 6pm to start our pot sticker making dinner party. It was really fun because everyone worked together to make this pot sticker party fun.
Phillip was the baby-sitter.
Ruth helped pan fry the pot stickers.
Isaac helped wrap up pot stickers.
Mom boiled dumplings.
Dad helped himself by eating both pot stickers and dumplings.
Aunt Man-Lian helped by playing with Isaac when he wasn’t making pot stickers. Mark helped cut up veggies, tofu and wrapped pot stickers.
Cindy did the dishes, wrapped pot stickers, chopped up veggies and did everything else in between.
Ke baked cake and helped wrap pot stickers.
Wilson marinated pork, wrapped pot stickers and played with Jeremiah.
Joseph played with Isaac and Jeremiah when Philip had to do something.
Maria was the chef.
I was the assistant chef.
Finally, Max came by to play with Jeremiah and Isaac.
It was a really fun night and we all enjoyed ourselves very much. Oh, Isaac made about 10 pot stickers and he ate about 18 of them.
Phillip was the baby-sitter.
Ruth helped pan fry the pot stickers.
Isaac helped wrap up pot stickers.
Mom boiled dumplings.
Dad helped himself by eating both pot stickers and dumplings.
Aunt Man-Lian helped by playing with Isaac when he wasn’t making pot stickers. Mark helped cut up veggies, tofu and wrapped pot stickers.
Cindy did the dishes, wrapped pot stickers, chopped up veggies and did everything else in between.
Ke baked cake and helped wrap pot stickers.
Wilson marinated pork, wrapped pot stickers and played with Jeremiah.
Joseph played with Isaac and Jeremiah when Philip had to do something.
Maria was the chef.
I was the assistant chef.
Finally, Max came by to play with Jeremiah and Isaac.
It was a really fun night and we all enjoyed ourselves very much. Oh, Isaac made about 10 pot stickers and he ate about 18 of them.
Friday, August 3, 2007
Hanging out with Wilson
Touring the Bay Area
For the past week, I have been touring around town with my Cousin Wilson and his classmate, Jack, from Taiwan. We went to the Monterey Bay Aquarium and Monterey Bay’s on Tuesday. We visited the Palace of Fine Art, the Exploratorium, had a picnic by Fort Mason, walked around the Marina, drove across the Golden Gate Bridge and walked back a bit on it on Wednesday. We took BART out to SF, got off at the Powell Street station and walked from downtown to Chinatown, down Columbus Street, hiked up to Lombard Street, down Leavenworth Street to Fisherman’s Wharf, Pier 39, back to the Mason & Powell Street Cable Car Turnaround, hopped onto a Cable Car back down to the SF Centre, shopped at Nordstrom and Bloomingdale’s and finally hopped backed onto BART at Powell Street station and headed home. Japan Town and the Golden Gate Park were our destinations today. We visited Japan Town, shopped around, had lunch, ran into Rita, Louise and Jacky and then headed toward Golden Gate Park. We visited the Rose Garden, walked around the grounds of the deYoung Museum, the Temple of Music, the Japanese Tea Garden, stopped by the Conservatory of Flowers, walked around the Stow Lake, drove down J. F. Kennedy Drive, listened to Jazz music at the North Windmill and then drove back home down Geary Blvd.
I am having a great time because I have walked, drove, ate and enjoyed myself very much. Tomorrow, I will meet up with LA’s Lawrence and Roxanna and Lawrence’s family from New Zealand for dinner at Tra Vigne at Napa. Busy week....
For the past week, I have been touring around town with my Cousin Wilson and his classmate, Jack, from Taiwan. We went to the Monterey Bay Aquarium and Monterey Bay’s on Tuesday. We visited the Palace of Fine Art, the Exploratorium, had a picnic by Fort Mason, walked around the Marina, drove across the Golden Gate Bridge and walked back a bit on it on Wednesday. We took BART out to SF, got off at the Powell Street station and walked from downtown to Chinatown, down Columbus Street, hiked up to Lombard Street, down Leavenworth Street to Fisherman’s Wharf, Pier 39, back to the Mason & Powell Street Cable Car Turnaround, hopped onto a Cable Car back down to the SF Centre, shopped at Nordstrom and Bloomingdale’s and finally hopped backed onto BART at Powell Street station and headed home. Japan Town and the Golden Gate Park were our destinations today. We visited Japan Town, shopped around, had lunch, ran into Rita, Louise and Jacky and then headed toward Golden Gate Park. We visited the Rose Garden, walked around the grounds of the deYoung Museum, the Temple of Music, the Japanese Tea Garden, stopped by the Conservatory of Flowers, walked around the Stow Lake, drove down J. F. Kennedy Drive, listened to Jazz music at the North Windmill and then drove back home down Geary Blvd.
I am having a great time because I have walked, drove, ate and enjoyed myself very much. Tomorrow, I will meet up with LA’s Lawrence and Roxanna and Lawrence’s family from New Zealand for dinner at Tra Vigne at Napa. Busy week....
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Busy???
I haven't been updating my blog lately because I've been busy with family stuff. The stuff that I've been busy with were big and important but just stuff that I have to deal with.
Cousin Wilson and his friend are done with their month long English Language studing and are now staying with Ruth and her family. I've been hanging out with them and taking them to different places. Will upate later...
Bye for now.
Cousin Wilson and his friend are done with their month long English Language studing and are now staying with Ruth and her family. I've been hanging out with them and taking them to different places. Will upate later...
Bye for now.
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Train and cotton candy
I had one of the most fun days today when I went for a train ride with Isaac and Jeremiah. Of course, their mother, my dear sister came along as well. The weather was perfect and the kids behaved exceeding well.
We left the house at around 11am and went straight to Tilden Park Steam Trains, built by railroad enthusiast Erich Thomsen and it has been in operations since 1952, for a grand time of kid friendly train ride. This was Jeremiah’s first steam train ride so he had no idea how excited he will be henceforth. While riding on the steam train, he kept pointing things out to us and kept babbling to us. Isaac has not had a ride since last fall so he too was very excited about the steam train ride.
After the short 12-minute train ride, which only costs $2 per person and kids under 2 are free, we went back to our car and head straight to our next destination – the Tilden Park Merry-Go-Round. All of us went on this old fashion carousel which was built in 1911 by the Herschell-Spillman Company. This was also Jeremiah’s very first Merry-Go-Round ride so once again he kept babbling about the horse and didn’t want to get off.
After the Merry-Go-Round ride, I treated Isaac and Jeremiah cotton candy and ice cream. They had the brightest smile on their faces and behaved so well.
While waiting in line to place our order of cotton candy and ice cream with Isaac, I made a comment to the person who stood before me of how nice her Tokidoki purse was and if the purse was big enough for everyday use. She said to me, “Being a mom like yourself, I have all my kid’s crap in this bag and I am always surprised of how much stuff this bag can hold.” Wow! She thought that Isaac is my son! I had so much joy in my heart knowing that someone else actually thought that Isaac is my son. Ha! Isaac is my son then. Ha, ha, ha!
Thank the Lord for this wonderful day. I got to play with Isaac, Jeremiah and I got to spend time with my sister Ruth. Most importantly, I know that even though I don’t have a son of my own, my nephews are in a way, my sons.
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Got Bliss?
I went for a body massage yesterday at the Kabuki Springs & Spa with a friend of mine. The package is called “Bliss Massage with Private Bath.” The entire package cost was $105 and it is totally worth the price.
Below is the description of the treatment.
Bliss Massage with Private Bath: Our most comforting treatment at the Kabuki Springs & Spa. Relax in a traditional Japanese furo tub with our signature matcha (green tea) bath. This aromatic bath is followed by a 50 minute Swedish massage.
After we’ve registered at the front desk, we were asked to wait at the narrow waiting area where tea light candles were lit, soft Zen music played and cucumber iced water awaited for us to consume. Shortly after we sat down to enjoy our cucumber iced water, a bath assistant came and ushered me into my treatment room. Inside, there was a furo tub at the far right corner. In the center of the treatment room was a plush massage table with rolls of terry towels. Next to the furo tub, a narrow table where several tea light candles were lit and a large wooden platter containing small plates of chilled cucumber slices, a cup of green tea, bath salt, green tea powder, several slices of Fuji apples, flowers, and a cup of ice water.
The bath assistant asked me to undress, take a seat at the wooden Japanese stool, and get ready for the private bath. Was I in for a treat!
The bath assistant scrubbed my back with the softest hand towel soaked with cucumber shower gel and then gave me a quick massage down my spin. She then picked up a large water bucket, filled it with warm water and poured the water down my back 5 times. Afterwards, she poured bath salt and green tea powder into the tub and asked me to enjoy my personal bath time.
As I was sitting inside the tub with my eyes covered with slices of chilled cucumber and a chilled hand towel. I was immediately reminded of 楊貴妃, from 長恨歌, written by 白居易, at the Tong Dynasty. I felt like I was 楊貴妃, especially when 白居易 wrote 〝春寒賜浴華清池，溫泉水滑洗凝脂。〞 Yup, I felt like I was 楊貴妃 herself and that I was enjoying the most pampering treatment ever.
After the private bath, the bath assistant came in and helped me into the massage table for the Swedish massage.
Shortly, my massage therapist came in and she gave me the most relaxing, tickle free body massage ever that lasted about 50 minutes. I got my upper and lower back, front and back legs, front and back arms, shoulders, neck, feet, hands, and butt massaged. It felt so good! At the end of the treatment, I felt rejuvenated, relaxed, recuperated, rested, refreshed, and recharged. My skin felt velvety soft and my cheeks were glowing. What an awesome experience! Everyone should get it done at least once or better yet several times yearly.
Yeah, I got bliss and I thank God for giving me such a wonderful experience.
Below is the description of the treatment.
Bliss Massage with Private Bath: Our most comforting treatment at the Kabuki Springs & Spa. Relax in a traditional Japanese furo tub with our signature matcha (green tea) bath. This aromatic bath is followed by a 50 minute Swedish massage.
After we’ve registered at the front desk, we were asked to wait at the narrow waiting area where tea light candles were lit, soft Zen music played and cucumber iced water awaited for us to consume. Shortly after we sat down to enjoy our cucumber iced water, a bath assistant came and ushered me into my treatment room. Inside, there was a furo tub at the far right corner. In the center of the treatment room was a plush massage table with rolls of terry towels. Next to the furo tub, a narrow table where several tea light candles were lit and a large wooden platter containing small plates of chilled cucumber slices, a cup of green tea, bath salt, green tea powder, several slices of Fuji apples, flowers, and a cup of ice water.
The bath assistant asked me to undress, take a seat at the wooden Japanese stool, and get ready for the private bath. Was I in for a treat!
The bath assistant scrubbed my back with the softest hand towel soaked with cucumber shower gel and then gave me a quick massage down my spin. She then picked up a large water bucket, filled it with warm water and poured the water down my back 5 times. Afterwards, she poured bath salt and green tea powder into the tub and asked me to enjoy my personal bath time.
As I was sitting inside the tub with my eyes covered with slices of chilled cucumber and a chilled hand towel. I was immediately reminded of 楊貴妃, from 長恨歌, written by 白居易, at the Tong Dynasty. I felt like I was 楊貴妃, especially when 白居易 wrote 〝春寒賜浴華清池，溫泉水滑洗凝脂。〞 Yup, I felt like I was 楊貴妃 herself and that I was enjoying the most pampering treatment ever.
After the private bath, the bath assistant came in and helped me into the massage table for the Swedish massage.
Shortly, my massage therapist came in and she gave me the most relaxing, tickle free body massage ever that lasted about 50 minutes. I got my upper and lower back, front and back legs, front and back arms, shoulders, neck, feet, hands, and butt massaged. It felt so good! At the end of the treatment, I felt rejuvenated, relaxed, recuperated, rested, refreshed, and recharged. My skin felt velvety soft and my cheeks were glowing. What an awesome experience! Everyone should get it done at least once or better yet several times yearly.
Yeah, I got bliss and I thank God for giving me such a wonderful experience.
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
寶貝們都回來了
寶貝回來了。 而且他們兩個小朋友都被太陽烤的黑黑黝黝的，好可愛。
下午我去他們家陪他們玩小火車。 兩個小朋友都很愛玩小火車。 高興。
剛才午森打了兩次電話給我。 他受了一些萎屈令到他很難過，哭起來了。
可憐的大朋友。
下午我去他們家陪他們玩小火車。 兩個小朋友都很愛玩小火車。 高興。
剛才午森打了兩次電話給我。 他受了一些萎屈令到他很難過，哭起來了。
可憐的大朋友。
Friday, July 13, 2007
Pride and Prejudice
這個星期收到了新賣的 DVD – Pride and Prejudice。 BBC 拍的這個 mini series 是 Jane Austen 小說 mini series 中我最喜歡的。 好高興，因為我終於買到了這個 mini series。
昨天晚上是我最後一次的輔導。 在這過去八次的輔導中，我更加的了解與及認識我自已多一點。
從經文中看到了我是非常的自我、自私、自大與及自主。 有很多時候跟本就沒有把主放在心中。 在生命決定上，也常沒有把主放在第一位。 我更加的了解自已的愛心不夠多，還常有小心眼！ 看到自已心裡面原來是這嘛黑暗，真的有點難受。
感謝主給了我在過去八次的輔導。 也感謝主給了我一位細心又有耐心的輔導員。
但當我一想到神對我的愛時，特別是當我非常不可愛的時候，衪己經愛我了，心裡就充滿了感恩。 感謝主！ 得救，不是因為我多可愛，乃是因為信衪而稱意。
從現在開始，主的靈就是我最好的輔導。
昨天晚上是我最後一次的輔導。 在這過去八次的輔導中，我更加的了解與及認識我自已多一點。
從經文中看到了我是非常的自我、自私、自大與及自主。 有很多時候跟本就沒有把主放在心中。 在生命決定上，也常沒有把主放在第一位。 我更加的了解自已的愛心不夠多，還常有小心眼！ 看到自已心裡面原來是這嘛黑暗，真的有點難受。
感謝主給了我在過去八次的輔導。 也感謝主給了我一位細心又有耐心的輔導員。
但當我一想到神對我的愛時，特別是當我非常不可愛的時候，衪己經愛我了，心裡就充滿了感恩。 感謝主！ 得救，不是因為我多可愛，乃是因為信衪而稱意。
從現在開始，主的靈就是我最好的輔導。
Thursday, July 12, 2007
小天使今天不在家！
小天使們今天不在家，一大早就飛出去玩。
太陽不下山不回來，Dada 也拿他們沒辦法。
我的寶貝們又去玩囉！ 這次他們是跟爸爸、媽媽、舅舅、姑姑、姑丈、三位表姊、表舅還有表舅的同學一齊去麗山國家公園去露營。
噯！ 才回來沒四天，他們又出去玩了。
好吧，哪 Dada 只好等他們回來後再跟他們講故事、唱歌、玩 WII、還有玩 Yao-Yao-Ni 囉。
這幾天因為有時差，小寶貝白天晚上都在睡覺。 睡得小臉蛋兒像個小蘋果一樣，紅紅又圓圓的。
有好幾次我都想咬他的小臉蛋兒一囗。
可惜他娘就在旁邊兒，看著小寶貝緊緊的。
要不然，小寶貝的臉就會變傷痕累累囉。
等吧，我只有等。
太陽不下山不回來，Dada 也拿他們沒辦法。
我的寶貝們又去玩囉！ 這次他們是跟爸爸、媽媽、舅舅、姑姑、姑丈、三位表姊、表舅還有表舅的同學一齊去麗山國家公園去露營。
噯！ 才回來沒四天，他們又出去玩了。
好吧，哪 Dada 只好等他們回來後再跟他們講故事、唱歌、玩 WII、還有玩 Yao-Yao-Ni 囉。
這幾天因為有時差，小寶貝白天晚上都在睡覺。 睡得小臉蛋兒像個小蘋果一樣，紅紅又圓圓的。
有好幾次我都想咬他的小臉蛋兒一囗。
可惜他娘就在旁邊兒，看著小寶貝緊緊的。
要不然，小寶貝的臉就會變傷痕累累囉。
等吧，我只有等。
Monday, July 9, 2007
我的寶貝
我的寶貝們終於從太公、太婆家回來了。
他們在台灣看了好多人。 除了家裡的太公、太婆、舅公、舅婆、姨公、姨婆們、和其它的阿姨和舅舅們外，還見到了國民黨總統後選人馬英九舅舅。
寶貝們在這幾個星期裡長高了一點，也話多了一點。 Jeremiah 會說婆婆罵。 Isaac 學多了一些中文生字，嘴巴甜多了，很會說謝謝。
感謝主，他們平安回來。
感謝主，他們平安回來。
Saturday, July 7, 2007
4 Weddings And A Home-Going Celebration
In addition to the Home-Going Celebration, there are 4 weddings for me to attend this year. There will be two in September, one in November and one in December. I was told that I’ll be an emcee at one of the couples’ wedding. It should be fun and interesting.
The wedding invitation I received today is giving me a lot of grief and anger. The potential of seeing “him” is giving me a lot of grief. The fact that I am not totally healed after all these years is making me very angry at myself. I know it takes time to heal wounds but isn’t 3 years long enough? It's been challenging so I need to depend on God to get me through this.
I don’t think I can go to this wedding because I know that I'd be an emotional mess if I go.
The wedding invitation I received today is giving me a lot of grief and anger. The potential of seeing “him” is giving me a lot of grief. The fact that I am not totally healed after all these years is making me very angry at myself. I know it takes time to heal wounds but isn’t 3 years long enough? It's been challenging so I need to depend on God to get me through this.
I don’t think I can go to this wedding because I know that I'd be an emotional mess if I go.
Got licked
I got licked today by a very sweet, cute, smart and lovely guy today! I treated him some ice cream today and he thanked me by giving me a kiss + a lick on my cheek today. Yup, I got licked by a cute guy today. Oh, the cute little guy is a 4-years-old boy names Joshy, Wayne and Kelly’s son.
Friday, July 6, 2007
心情很差
今天的心情比較差勁，也有一點情緒化。
主要是因為昨天晚上收到了一封 email。 Email 的內容主要是告訢我好友將於九月二日，星期日，結婚。 好友要結婚了，我為他與他的未婚妻都很高興。 心情壞不是因為好友要結婚了，乃是因為我終於要再一次面對幾年沒見的〝他〞了。
我今天心情壞到只想罵人。 一想到我又要見到〝他〞時，心裡面就在那罵粗口。 整天都在那 blib 過來 blib 過去。 真得好難受。 以為自己很堅強、都己經過了三年了、心裡的傷痕都好了。 沒想到，我在自欺欺人，傷痕跟本就沒好。
難到我真的是那嘛差嗎？ 我一定要把〝他〞給放下。 這樣，我才可以從新開始、去愛我應該愛的人。
主啊，求你幫助我，帶我走出這一片汚雲，讓我再見青天。
主要是因為昨天晚上收到了一封 email。 Email 的內容主要是告訢我好友將於九月二日，星期日，結婚。 好友要結婚了，我為他與他的未婚妻都很高興。 心情壞不是因為好友要結婚了，乃是因為我終於要再一次面對幾年沒見的〝他〞了。
我今天心情壞到只想罵人。 一想到我又要見到〝他〞時，心裡面就在那罵粗口。 整天都在那 blib 過來 blib 過去。 真得好難受。 以為自己很堅強、都己經過了三年了、心裡的傷痕都好了。 沒想到，我在自欺欺人，傷痕跟本就沒好。
難到我真的是那嘛差嗎？ 我一定要把〝他〞給放下。 這樣，我才可以從新開始、去愛我應該愛的人。
主啊，求你幫助我，帶我走出這一片汚雲，讓我再見青天。
Thursday, July 5, 2007
Cousin Wilson
午森 & 仁杰 – Cousin Wilson and his buddy from college are here for a month long English Language Program at Cal State Sacramento.
I picked them up at SFO on Monday and drove them to their host family’s place at Sacramento. This is Wilson’s first time here and he is having a wonderful time learning everything about US, especially Northern California.
On 4th of July, Joseph and I drove up to Sacramento to hang out with Wilson and his buddy. Since Wilson loves to eat meat, we took them to the ultimate All American Burger place, In-And-Out Burgers for their ultimate experience. Joseph ordered 3 of the 4X4 in Animal plus fries and sodas. I didn't think that they could finish all the food coz there were just so much. Well, they did. They ate everything! But they took their sweet time eating their very first 4X4 in Animal. As I was watching them, for a very brief moment I thought 仁杰吃到快要反白眼了. Man, it was so funny.
Just got a call from Wilson, he and his class visited Chinatown, the Fisherman’s Wharf, The Golden Gate Bridge and etc. But he didn’t have a good day today coz he had lost one of his contacts on the bus coming down here. He also didn't know that they were coming down here so he didn’t have enough batteries for his digital camera. At the end, he didn’t take enough pictures.
I told Wilson that I will take him back to the Fisherman’s Wharf, Chinatown and all those places he’s visited plus other places nearby.
I picked them up at SFO on Monday and drove them to their host family’s place at Sacramento. This is Wilson’s first time here and he is having a wonderful time learning everything about US, especially Northern California.
On 4th of July, Joseph and I drove up to Sacramento to hang out with Wilson and his buddy. Since Wilson loves to eat meat, we took them to the ultimate All American Burger place, In-And-Out Burgers for their ultimate experience. Joseph ordered 3 of the 4X4 in Animal plus fries and sodas. I didn't think that they could finish all the food coz there were just so much. Well, they did. They ate everything! But they took their sweet time eating their very first 4X4 in Animal. As I was watching them, for a very brief moment I thought 仁杰吃到快要反白眼了. Man, it was so funny.
Just got a call from Wilson, he and his class visited Chinatown, the Fisherman’s Wharf, The Golden Gate Bridge and etc. But he didn’t have a good day today coz he had lost one of his contacts on the bus coming down here. He also didn't know that they were coming down here so he didn’t have enough batteries for his digital camera. At the end, he didn’t take enough pictures.
I told Wilson that I will take him back to the Fisherman’s Wharf, Chinatown and all those places he’s visited plus other places nearby.
It would be fun… Wilson is so funny. Oh, I used to change his diapers too…. Ha, ha, ha, ha…
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
Hanging out with friends from LA
Sunday’s worship was awesome! My friend Charlotte and her sister Catherine came to church with me. At the worship, we sang “Amazing Love”, “Here is Love” plus other old hymns. Charlotte was one of many old friends who came up this weekend to attend Susan’s Home-going celebration. After lunch, we visited the de Young Museum in the City. In all, it was such a nice day.
Today, I picked up Wilson and his classmate from SFO. They arrived at around 4:20pm and because Wilson was able to speak pretty good English, they came out at around 4:50pm. It was so good to see Wilson. He’s such a sweetheart and so very cute. Actually, he looks very much like Uncle Andrew when he was young.
After a light dinner, we stopped by the ACM choir practice. Since we got there a bit earlier, Wilson started talking to one of the choir members. By the time we left for Sacramento, Wilson was already exchanging email addresses with the choir member. How fast he can make friends…. It’s funny.
What I learned from Tony….
Love is a spiritual grace. Love is the crowning jewel of the Spirit, the fulfillment of the Law, the perfection of all the Christian graces, the badge of the Christian, and the place to start to measure.
Love is indispensable – without love, we are nothing.
Love personifies Christ. Christian love is an action before feeling.
Love is permanent and it endures.
Today, I picked up Wilson and his classmate from SFO. They arrived at around 4:20pm and because Wilson was able to speak pretty good English, they came out at around 4:50pm. It was so good to see Wilson. He’s such a sweetheart and so very cute. Actually, he looks very much like Uncle Andrew when he was young.
After a light dinner, we stopped by the ACM choir practice. Since we got there a bit earlier, Wilson started talking to one of the choir members. By the time we left for Sacramento, Wilson was already exchanging email addresses with the choir member. How fast he can make friends…. It’s funny.
What I learned from Tony….
Love is a spiritual grace. Love is the crowning jewel of the Spirit, the fulfillment of the Law, the perfection of all the Christian graces, the badge of the Christian, and the place to start to measure.
Love is indispensable – without love, we are nothing.
Love personifies Christ. Christian love is an action before feeling.
Love is permanent and it endures.
It's been fun and busy.... I am so tired.... but good because of God's love.
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Home-going Celebration for Susan Leong
I attended the most joyous home-going celebration today. My dear sister and former WCCCC advisor, Susan Leong, went back to the Lord on June 20th, 2007 and today we celebrated her home-going.
I arrived at SFCAC about 5 minutes before the start of the celebration and was told that I had to hurry up coz the celebration was starting. The mood started out pretty somber but soon after, we realized that we weren’t attending a funeral but a celebration of Susan’s life. We sang Susan’s favorite hymn, "Great Is Thy Faithfulness” and we saw a video clip recorded prior to her home-going. In the video clip, Susan shared with us how she came to the Lord and why she loved the Lord. She also invited all the non-Christians there to believe in Christ, Jesus. It was very touching and most inspiring. She has once more inspired me to store up my treasures in Heaven rather than here on earth where things will perish.
After the celebration was over, I turned around and saw some “old” friends like Carl and Christina Wong and Rene Chung from LA and Julia and her family from Orinda. In addition to the real WCCCC old-timers, the not that old-timers like Hans and Winnie, Calvin and his new bride, Sam & Virginia, Lorsen and Jamie, Jusson & Liz, Claura & Winson, Felicia, Johnny, Peter, Eddie, Jim and Christine, Wayne and Kelly, and of course my buddies Johanna, Fiona and Charlotte were also there. It was so good to see friends I haven’t seen for so long. I thank God that He uses this wonderful opportunity, at Susan’s home-going celebration, to bring old “comrades” together to remember how Susan has touched each one of us.
Immediately following to the home-going celebration, all of us were invited to the celebration lunch for some of Susan’s favorite food. There were meat, chicken, seafood, veggies, soup, chow-mein, plus her most favorite carrot cake and Coldstones Ice Cream. At the lunch table, we sat with Susan’s care-giver/former assistant and it was so good to know that she’s now going to church because of Susan’s life testimony. The food was great, deserts were most delicious and the fellowship was most uplifting. We all shared with one another how we met Susan and how she has inspired, charged, challenged and encouraged us.
I will miss her for now but will see her again when I get my chance to join the Lord. Susan planned every little detail of her home-going celebration from what song to song, which scripture is to be read and all the way to what ice cream she wanted her loved ones to have at her home-going celebration lunch. She has set an excellent example to all of us on how we all should celebrate our own home-going. It was indeed a celebration because we celebrated her life and the love she had for us.
What a way to celebrate life! What a way to celebrate a new beginning of forever with the Lord! May God bless Susan's family. Praise the Lord! Praise the Living God!
I arrived at SFCAC about 5 minutes before the start of the celebration and was told that I had to hurry up coz the celebration was starting. The mood started out pretty somber but soon after, we realized that we weren’t attending a funeral but a celebration of Susan’s life. We sang Susan’s favorite hymn, "Great Is Thy Faithfulness” and we saw a video clip recorded prior to her home-going. In the video clip, Susan shared with us how she came to the Lord and why she loved the Lord. She also invited all the non-Christians there to believe in Christ, Jesus. It was very touching and most inspiring. She has once more inspired me to store up my treasures in Heaven rather than here on earth where things will perish.
After the celebration was over, I turned around and saw some “old” friends like Carl and Christina Wong and Rene Chung from LA and Julia and her family from Orinda. In addition to the real WCCCC old-timers, the not that old-timers like Hans and Winnie, Calvin and his new bride, Sam & Virginia, Lorsen and Jamie, Jusson & Liz, Claura & Winson, Felicia, Johnny, Peter, Eddie, Jim and Christine, Wayne and Kelly, and of course my buddies Johanna, Fiona and Charlotte were also there. It was so good to see friends I haven’t seen for so long. I thank God that He uses this wonderful opportunity, at Susan’s home-going celebration, to bring old “comrades” together to remember how Susan has touched each one of us.
Immediately following to the home-going celebration, all of us were invited to the celebration lunch for some of Susan’s favorite food. There were meat, chicken, seafood, veggies, soup, chow-mein, plus her most favorite carrot cake and Coldstones Ice Cream. At the lunch table, we sat with Susan’s care-giver/former assistant and it was so good to know that she’s now going to church because of Susan’s life testimony. The food was great, deserts were most delicious and the fellowship was most uplifting. We all shared with one another how we met Susan and how she has inspired, charged, challenged and encouraged us.
I will miss her for now but will see her again when I get my chance to join the Lord. Susan planned every little detail of her home-going celebration from what song to song, which scripture is to be read and all the way to what ice cream she wanted her loved ones to have at her home-going celebration lunch. She has set an excellent example to all of us on how we all should celebrate our own home-going. It was indeed a celebration because we celebrated her life and the love she had for us.
What a way to celebrate life! What a way to celebrate a new beginning of forever with the Lord! May God bless Susan's family. Praise the Lord! Praise the Living God!
Friday, June 29, 2007
Feeling Blah!!!!!
Lately, I have been feeling kind of blah. I am not depressed but just feeling blah. So, someone I know asked me why I feel blah and what is considered a good day. So, what is a good day? What does it mean to have a good day?
Do I have a good day when something fun and exciting has happened to me? Do I have a good day when everything went well with me? What is a good day?
How's your day been? Have you had a good day so far?
Do I have a good day when something fun and exciting has happened to me? Do I have a good day when everything went well with me? What is a good day?
How's your day been? Have you had a good day so far?
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Moving....
A few people I know are moving on.
A few of them are moving back to Asia and a sister has moved back to the Father.
My friend and her family will be moving back to Asia to work so I was invited to go help them pack up and just spend some time with them. The first thing I did was to help them take apart a set of IKEA dining table and chairs. Ironically, I was the person who helped them put together this set of chairs and dining table. Aside from packing things and taking things apart, I had just a little time spent with their 4-year-old son and played with him a little. It was so nice to spent time with them and to help them out. They plan to work in Asia for about 10 years so we were all joking that when they come back from Asia, their son should be able to help me to put together their family dining set.
Another thing that has been on my mind was the death of one of my old friends. She has moved back to the Lord on Wednesday night after years of fighting her cancer. I still remember vividly the first time I met her when I first starting serving WCCCC. I remembered it being a cold January afternoon at Sunnyvale when I was about 27. For some strange reason, she had called me Jackie for the longest time. On that day, she was training us on how to come up with a 3-year conference focus and theme. She said a lot of things to us at that 2-day meeting and the only thing I remembered very clearly from her training was that we live our lives to worship God. In many ways, my old friend has done that with her life. She remained faithful to the Lord and kept worshiping Him until her last breathe on earth. I look forward seeing her again when I get to move back to the Lord.
How are you living your life to worship the King? What are the things in your life that are taking up rooms in your heart thus blocking you to worship the Lord full-heartedly?
A few of them are moving back to Asia and a sister has moved back to the Father.
My friend and her family will be moving back to Asia to work so I was invited to go help them pack up and just spend some time with them. The first thing I did was to help them take apart a set of IKEA dining table and chairs. Ironically, I was the person who helped them put together this set of chairs and dining table. Aside from packing things and taking things apart, I had just a little time spent with their 4-year-old son and played with him a little. It was so nice to spent time with them and to help them out. They plan to work in Asia for about 10 years so we were all joking that when they come back from Asia, their son should be able to help me to put together their family dining set.
Another thing that has been on my mind was the death of one of my old friends. She has moved back to the Lord on Wednesday night after years of fighting her cancer. I still remember vividly the first time I met her when I first starting serving WCCCC. I remembered it being a cold January afternoon at Sunnyvale when I was about 27. For some strange reason, she had called me Jackie for the longest time. On that day, she was training us on how to come up with a 3-year conference focus and theme. She said a lot of things to us at that 2-day meeting and the only thing I remembered very clearly from her training was that we live our lives to worship God. In many ways, my old friend has done that with her life. She remained faithful to the Lord and kept worshiping Him until her last breathe on earth. I look forward seeing her again when I get to move back to the Lord.
How are you living your life to worship the King? What are the things in your life that are taking up rooms in your heart thus blocking you to worship the Lord full-heartedly?
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Big Eyes!
I really like this picture and it makes me laugh. I find this picture very funny and I look absolutely silly in it. So, please laugh with me.
Oh, in case no one has said anything nice to you today yet….. Hi, I love you.
Oh, in case no one has said anything nice to you today yet….. Hi, I love you.
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
A crazy day….
What a crazy day it has been. There were endless phone calls, emails and things to do for the coming Immanuel Worshippers tour in September. It was so crazy that I did an over-the-phone job interview this early evening. Waa! What a crazy day.
I am tired. But thank God that everything is being ironed out and things are getting finalized.
Before going to the choir practice last night, I stopped by Nordstrom for a light dinner and looked around a bit. As I was standing by the sunglasses and purse section, one of the customers started talking to me of how nice this and that pair of sunglasses looked. I proceed to tell her that this summer and fall, the hottest color for sunglasses is BLUE. So, we took a look around and found only one pair of sunglasses that had blue lenses and blue frame. Needless to say, the sunglasses didn’t fit me due to my wide face. But it suited this lady very well. The more we talked, the more she liked the way it looked on her. Finally, she purchased it. Yup, I help sold a pair of sunglasses at Nordstrom last night. Maybe I do want to work in sales now? Can I do that?
I kind of want to do sales coz it is fun being with the public. I am tired of sitting behind some desk and just be a pencil pusher.
I am tired. But thank God that everything is being ironed out and things are getting finalized.
Before going to the choir practice last night, I stopped by Nordstrom for a light dinner and looked around a bit. As I was standing by the sunglasses and purse section, one of the customers started talking to me of how nice this and that pair of sunglasses looked. I proceed to tell her that this summer and fall, the hottest color for sunglasses is BLUE. So, we took a look around and found only one pair of sunglasses that had blue lenses and blue frame. Needless to say, the sunglasses didn’t fit me due to my wide face. But it suited this lady very well. The more we talked, the more she liked the way it looked on her. Finally, she purchased it. Yup, I help sold a pair of sunglasses at Nordstrom last night. Maybe I do want to work in sales now? Can I do that?
I kind of want to do sales coz it is fun being with the public. I am tired of sitting behind some desk and just be a pencil pusher.
IW
今天晚上很高興，因為ＩＷ詩班終於開始囉！ 雖然我們今晚沒有練唱，但我們有一小段敬拜與及分享時間。 好高興！
今天下午看了 從LA Patrick 寄來的芝加哥敬拜ＤＶＤ。 看完之後，心裡面再一次感受到主給我的愛。 也再一次肯定我踏出來的那一步 -〝全時間事奉〞，是應該踏的一步路。
其實心裡有點心事，也不知道要怎搞的嘛！ 以為己經在芝加哥不見的感覺不知道怎搞的，它自已又找到了我。 沒法子，把這感覺交給主，由主來帶領，由衪來安排。
今天下午看了 從LA Patrick 寄來的芝加哥敬拜ＤＶＤ。 看完之後，心裡面再一次感受到主給我的愛。 也再一次肯定我踏出來的那一步 -〝全時間事奉〞，是應該踏的一步路。
其實心裡有點心事，也不知道要怎搞的嘛！ 以為己經在芝加哥不見的感覺不知道怎搞的，它自已又找到了我。 沒法子，把這感覺交給主，由主來帶領，由衪來安排。
Saturday, June 16, 2007
老朋友
今天中午開車去聖荷西去看一位好友與她的新寶貝。寶寶好可愛，好小。他的名字是我中文名字但用意大利文寫的。後來，又去了另一個〝紅雞蛋〞寶寶會。在那裡，我見到了些好幾年沒見到的老朋友。
算一算，認識他們也有十幾年囉！這一群朋友，都是以前的戰友。以前我們大伙全都一齊在ＷＣＣＣＣ事奉。那個時候，大伙都只有二十來歲。大家一齊事奉，好快樂。那時，我們經常去ＬＡ。開ＷＣＣＣＣ的會，有時候很好玩，但也有很要命的日子。記得有一年，我們開會開到晚上十一點半才完。當然，我們也有好玩的時間。有時我們開完會後會去海灘玩、晚上去唱Ｋ、ｓｈｏｐｐｉｎｇ、吃飯、看電影或是玩。想起來，那些曰子真的很快樂。
好快的，十幾年後，他們都結婚生子。就連那些還沒結婚的，也都訂了婚或是有了非常要好的男或女朋友。其實，我為他們高興，因為有情人終成眷。也盼望不久的將來，我也可以帶我的伴去見這些老朋友。
算一算，認識他們也有十幾年囉！這一群朋友，都是以前的戰友。以前我們大伙全都一齊在ＷＣＣＣＣ事奉。那個時候，大伙都只有二十來歲。大家一齊事奉，好快樂。那時，我們經常去ＬＡ。開ＷＣＣＣＣ的會，有時候很好玩，但也有很要命的日子。記得有一年，我們開會開到晚上十一點半才完。當然，我們也有好玩的時間。有時我們開完會後會去海灘玩、晚上去唱Ｋ、ｓｈｏｐｐｉｎｇ、吃飯、看電影或是玩。想起來，那些曰子真的很快樂。
好快的，十幾年後，他們都結婚生子。就連那些還沒結婚的，也都訂了婚或是有了非常要好的男或女朋友。其實，我為他們高興，因為有情人終成眷。也盼望不久的將來，我也可以帶我的伴去見這些老朋友。
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Cinema Paradiso
I am very happy today because I have finally received my Cinema Paradiso DVDs. Aside from Roman Holiday, A Room With A View, Cinema Paradiso is one of the best movies I have ever seen and I felt in love with this movie the very first time I saw it years ago.
I love the music of this movie, which was written by Ennio Morricone, who also wrote the music for The Mission. Years later, Josh Groban sang Cinema Paradiso on his CD. I would cry just listening to its music because it touches my heart every time I hear it.
I love the music of this movie, which was written by Ennio Morricone, who also wrote the music for The Mission. Years later, Josh Groban sang Cinema Paradiso on his CD. I would cry just listening to its music because it touches my heart every time I hear it.
Several years ago, I saw the director’s cut of Cinema Paradiso in Berkeley with an old friend. This is one of those movies that I can watch it again and again and I willl never get tired of it because it was so well made and so filled with love. It is most definitely a timeless must see movie and I would tell everyone to see it.
In addition to my Cinema Paradiso DVDs, I also received a new book - When People are Big and God is small by Edward T. Welch. I was assigned to read this book by my counselor. In addition to reading the Bible, this book has been very helpful in revealing some of my intentionally hidden sins and some sins that I am not aware of.
My counseling sessions have been eye opening and brightening and I definitely feel that God is fine-tuning me right now. Through prayers and reading His Word, God is revealing to me some very hideous stuff hidden inside of me and He is removing them one by one. I once shared with a sister that I feel like an erupting volcano right now because I feel that God is forcing out my sinful/ugly stuff, just like how He forces lava out from under the crust of the earth.
He is changing me. God is good, all the time.
In addition to my Cinema Paradiso DVDs, I also received a new book - When People are Big and God is small by Edward T. Welch. I was assigned to read this book by my counselor. In addition to reading the Bible, this book has been very helpful in revealing some of my intentionally hidden sins and some sins that I am not aware of.
My counseling sessions have been eye opening and brightening and I definitely feel that God is fine-tuning me right now. Through prayers and reading His Word, God is revealing to me some very hideous stuff hidden inside of me and He is removing them one by one. I once shared with a sister that I feel like an erupting volcano right now because I feel that God is forcing out my sinful/ugly stuff, just like how He forces lava out from under the crust of the earth.
He is changing me. God is good, all the time.
新的開始
昨天晚上有詩班分享祈禱會。除了一位弟兄沒到外，其它有份去芝加哥的兄弟姊妹們都來了。還有幾位因工作、上課或其它原因沒法子去芝加哥的兄弟姊妹也來了。好高興。雖然只有十幾天沒見到他們，心裡蠻想念他們的。老實說，打過了這一場芝加哥的仗後，心裡特別想念我的詩班員。
大家在分享時，我突然覺得我們真得好像一家人。大伙都把過去這幾個星期內所經歷的事一一拿出來分享。每一位也都誠心誠意的為大家祈禱，感覺好親蜜，好正。
下週一，又要開始練習新的一個敬拜程序。也就是又要開始 IW詩班練詩囉。 我盼望每一新來的及原有的詩班員，都可以再一次的把自已獻給主。
明天開始一直到七月中都會很悶，因為我的心肝寶貝去了台灣。怎麼辨？我已經開始想念他們兩個寶貝了，我完了。
大家在分享時，我突然覺得我們真得好像一家人。大伙都把過去這幾個星期內所經歷的事一一拿出來分享。每一位也都誠心誠意的為大家祈禱，感覺好親蜜，好正。
下週一，又要開始練習新的一個敬拜程序。也就是又要開始 IW詩班練詩囉。 我盼望每一新來的及原有的詩班員，都可以再一次的把自已獻給主。
明天開始一直到七月中都會很悶，因為我的心肝寶貝去了台灣。怎麼辨？我已經開始想念他們兩個寶貝了，我完了。
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
婚姻似……
婚姻好像咖啡，
未試過就好想試，
適合的、就逃不了，
不適合的、只好飲奶茶。
這幾句精言是一位香港知己送給我的。非常精，也非常好笑。好笑是因為我和他都是超愛喝咖啡的咖啡友。如果那一天，血液裡沒有咖啡在循環，那一天就是全身不自在。精，是因為他知道我的心情，也知道我想有個終生伴。更精的是他會用這幾句精言來鼓勵我。感謝主給了我一位可愛又會搞笑的知心朋友。
那我到底是要咖啡或是奶茶呢？我要咖葡情儂。哈哈！
未試過就好想試，
適合的、就逃不了，
不適合的、只好飲奶茶。
這幾句精言是一位香港知己送給我的。非常精，也非常好笑。好笑是因為我和他都是超愛喝咖啡的咖啡友。如果那一天，血液裡沒有咖啡在循環，那一天就是全身不自在。精，是因為他知道我的心情，也知道我想有個終生伴。更精的是他會用這幾句精言來鼓勵我。感謝主給了我一位可愛又會搞笑的知心朋友。
那我到底是要咖啡或是奶茶呢？我要咖葡情儂。哈哈！
Monday, June 11, 2007
舊信
舊信
自從有了 fax 和 email 後，我好久都沒有收到信了。
就算是聖誕節，收到的聖誕卡片也是一年比一年少。
去年我和妹妹回台灣時，二舅給了我一包收藏了有四十年的舊信。深夜裡，當我無法入睡時，我打開了這一包的信。這些家書中有外公寫給父母的信，有舅舅們和阿姨寫給我母親的信，有爺爺寫給我父親的信，有美國婆婆寫給我父母親的信，還有阿姨和大姊寫給我父親的信。
信中所寫的雖然是家常便飯，但看得出來是情深意重，每一個字都代表了千言萬語，每一句話都有千叮萬囑。我一面看這些信，我的眼淚就一面在流。心中有感受萬千，也感謝外公、外婆、阿姨和舅舅們給我們一家在困苦時的愛和支持。
更要感謝的是愛我們的主，給了我這嘛多愛我們的家人。要感恩，因為我們的主是最愛我們的主。衪給了我生命，給了我家人，朋友，在主裡又給了我自由。
〝我 若 展 開 清 晨 的 翅 膀 ， 飛 到 海 極 居 住 ，就 是 在 那 裡 ， 你 的 手 必 引 導 我 ； 你 的 右 手 也 必 扶 持 我 。〞 詩 篇 139:9-10
自從有了 fax 和 email 後，我好久都沒有收到信了。
就算是聖誕節，收到的聖誕卡片也是一年比一年少。
去年我和妹妹回台灣時，二舅給了我一包收藏了有四十年的舊信。深夜裡，當我無法入睡時，我打開了這一包的信。這些家書中有外公寫給父母的信，有舅舅們和阿姨寫給我母親的信，有爺爺寫給我父親的信，有美國婆婆寫給我父母親的信，還有阿姨和大姊寫給我父親的信。
信中所寫的雖然是家常便飯，但看得出來是情深意重，每一個字都代表了千言萬語，每一句話都有千叮萬囑。我一面看這些信，我的眼淚就一面在流。心中有感受萬千，也感謝外公、外婆、阿姨和舅舅們給我們一家在困苦時的愛和支持。
更要感謝的是愛我們的主，給了我這嘛多愛我們的家人。要感恩，因為我們的主是最愛我們的主。衪給了我生命，給了我家人，朋友，在主裡又給了我自由。
〝我 若 展 開 清 晨 的 翅 膀 ， 飛 到 海 極 居 住 ，就 是 在 那 裡 ， 你 的 手 必 引 導 我 ； 你 的 右 手 也 必 扶 持 我 。〞 詩 篇 139:9-10
Saturday, June 9, 2007
Aging
Most people were astonished when they found out my real age. Perhaps I look younger because of the way I dress, the type of music I listen to or how I speak, I don’t look my age. Oh, I am not complaining about it and quite frankly, I thank God for giving me great genes that I look younger. I don’t have any wrinkles on my fact yet but I have a lot of gray hair. I have so much gray hair that I need to do highlight on my hair to mask my gray to blonde. Yup, that’s right, my gray hair has jump from the category of gray to blonde.
It is true that blonds have so much more fun! Just the other day, when I was shopping at a local store, I caught several guys checking me out. In fact, one guy went as far as pushing his shopping cart back and forth the isle several times just so that he could check me out. It was so obvious to me that he was staring at me because I caught him staring at me and I smiled back. Personally, I find it funny and kind of hilarious.
It is hilarious because my appearance is quite deceiving and that my joints are starting to hurt me now. I went to the Children’s Discovery Museum earlier today with my sister and my nephews. There was a lot of walking and a lot of climbing up steps and running around the playground with my nephews. Once I had walk up some steps and my left knee started to have these sharp pain. Wow! I am aging. I have got to go talk to my doctor and what’s up with my knees.
Uncle Andrew told me over the phone that Grandpa is sick. Both my grandparents are living in Taiwan and are pretty healthy. They both love to travel and to hike. They started hiking when I was in my teens and because of their passion in hiking, my grandfather can still walk a lot. Grandmother, on the other hand is aging fast. Her energy level is very low and she sleeps a lot. The only thing that would get her all jazz up would be my nephews, Isaac and Jeremiah. She is especially crazy about Isaac because Isaac loves to tell her that he loves her. I love my grandparents very much. They refused to believe in Christ and I don’t understand why. Perhaps we didn’t set good examples or that their hearts are so stony.
Next Tuesday night, my mother, Ruth, Isaac and Jeremiah will go to Taiwan to visit my relatives in Taiwan including my grandparents, uncles, aunts and cousins. Most of them are either Buddhist or Atheists and they don’t know Jesus. We have been praying that perhaps God will open their hearts and Isaac has been asking God to let them, his great-grandparents to accept Christ.
It’s all in God’s hands now. We hope that they would accept Christ. We have faith.
It is true that blonds have so much more fun! Just the other day, when I was shopping at a local store, I caught several guys checking me out. In fact, one guy went as far as pushing his shopping cart back and forth the isle several times just so that he could check me out. It was so obvious to me that he was staring at me because I caught him staring at me and I smiled back. Personally, I find it funny and kind of hilarious.
It is hilarious because my appearance is quite deceiving and that my joints are starting to hurt me now. I went to the Children’s Discovery Museum earlier today with my sister and my nephews. There was a lot of walking and a lot of climbing up steps and running around the playground with my nephews. Once I had walk up some steps and my left knee started to have these sharp pain. Wow! I am aging. I have got to go talk to my doctor and what’s up with my knees.
Uncle Andrew told me over the phone that Grandpa is sick. Both my grandparents are living in Taiwan and are pretty healthy. They both love to travel and to hike. They started hiking when I was in my teens and because of their passion in hiking, my grandfather can still walk a lot. Grandmother, on the other hand is aging fast. Her energy level is very low and she sleeps a lot. The only thing that would get her all jazz up would be my nephews, Isaac and Jeremiah. She is especially crazy about Isaac because Isaac loves to tell her that he loves her. I love my grandparents very much. They refused to believe in Christ and I don’t understand why. Perhaps we didn’t set good examples or that their hearts are so stony.
Next Tuesday night, my mother, Ruth, Isaac and Jeremiah will go to Taiwan to visit my relatives in Taiwan including my grandparents, uncles, aunts and cousins. Most of them are either Buddhist or Atheists and they don’t know Jesus. We have been praying that perhaps God will open their hearts and Isaac has been asking God to let them, his great-grandparents to accept Christ.
It’s all in God’s hands now. We hope that they would accept Christ. We have faith.
愛
剛才去廚房沏茶時，母親正在看電視。電視上播放的那一幕，剛好正是一位女孩在哭。看電視上這位漂亮的女主角哭得這嘛傷心、我想她一定是為情而哭。沒多久，鏡頭就跳到了另一幕，這次是一位英俊美男坐在沙發上有點〝面左左〞的樣子。
感情。感情是神造的。女人特別重感情也是神給我們女人特別的〝恩賜〞。昨天有機會跟一些姊妹分享，很自然的話題就轉到了感情。人與人之間有感情就有愛。有一位姊妹問我喜歡那一形的男孩。我說，我還不認識主以前，我喜歡的都是〝壞男孩〞。那現在呢？現在？現在的我希望我會先成為箴言31:10-31裡面所說的那一位有才德的婦人。
主是無所不知的，衪知道我喜歡的是那一形男孩，衪也知道那一形的男孩會愛我。啊爸父，衪早以為我安排好了。
愛。上帝造我們每一個人都雖要愛。我們最雖要的是主給我們的愛。
朋友，你愛主嗎？
耶穌說：你們要先求衪的國和衪的義，這些東西都要加給你們了。馬太福音6:33
感情。感情是神造的。女人特別重感情也是神給我們女人特別的〝恩賜〞。昨天有機會跟一些姊妹分享，很自然的話題就轉到了感情。人與人之間有感情就有愛。有一位姊妹問我喜歡那一形的男孩。我說，我還不認識主以前，我喜歡的都是〝壞男孩〞。那現在呢？現在？現在的我希望我會先成為箴言31:10-31裡面所說的那一位有才德的婦人。
主是無所不知的，衪知道我喜歡的是那一形男孩，衪也知道那一形的男孩會愛我。啊爸父，衪早以為我安排好了。
愛。上帝造我們每一個人都雖要愛。我們最雖要的是主給我們的愛。
朋友，你愛主嗎？
耶穌說：你們要先求衪的國和衪的義，這些東西都要加給你們了。馬太福音6:33
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
心情不好
今天晚上心情不太好。 很複雜。 只想一個人找個洞，坐在裡面不出來。哭了，很難過。
其實今天本來是很開心、高興的。 下午我跟一位姊妹在一家北京飯店吃東西。 我叫了涼麵，朋友叫了牛肉麵，大家都吃得很開心，也談的很高興。
後來，我約了一位弟兄講事奉的上business，蠻高興的。
更開心的是因為我收到了一份意外的禮物。
回家後就開始做晚飯。也很開心因為家裡沒有人、很清靜。把後門打開，只聽到樹葉被風吹得沙沙聲，很平靜。
晚上發生了一件事令我很難過，我哭了。
只有等。等主的時侯。
謝謝聽我哭的人。不知道要說什麼才好，只有說謝謝啦。
其實今天本來是很開心、高興的。 下午我跟一位姊妹在一家北京飯店吃東西。 我叫了涼麵，朋友叫了牛肉麵，大家都吃得很開心，也談的很高興。
後來，我約了一位弟兄講事奉的上business，蠻高興的。
更開心的是因為我收到了一份意外的禮物。
回家後就開始做晚飯。也很開心因為家裡沒有人、很清靜。把後門打開，只聽到樹葉被風吹得沙沙聲，很平靜。
晚上發生了一件事令我很難過，我哭了。
只有等。等主的時侯。
謝謝聽我哭的人。不知道要說什麼才好，只有說謝謝啦。
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
從新再來
從新再來。明天，就是我被解僱的兩週日。 在過去的這兩個星期內，我嚐到了人間各樣不同的愛。當中有親情，朋友和上帝，主的愛。
親情的愛有分父母，手足和親人之間的愛。
朋友之間的愛有分親蜜戰友，普通朋友或是老朋友，種種不同深度的愛。
最後就是上帝給我們人類、無條件的愛。
被解僱後、父親的第一句話就是：好！你就去把大學諗完或是去讀神學吧！這一句話，給了我非常的鼓勵。
母親的第一句話就是：你還好吧？怎麼了？來，講給我聽怎麼樣。手足們的第一句話都是：不要怕，更不要難過，這是主的旨意，主有更好的安排，我們會支持你的。
第一位知道我被解僱的是住在加拿大的戰友隊長 Alfred 弟兄。 第二位知道我被解僱的是我的妹妹路敏。
第三位知道我被解僱的是灣區詩班員加戰友 Jacky 弟兄。
之後，有遠從香港，加拿大及近在舊金山灣區的朋友，弟兄姊妹們給了我不少的鼓勵與支持。這些全都是主給我的愛。
我不能說我沒有難過或是頹喪，但每一次我要開始亂想或是灰心時，神就用衪自己的話語或是在我身傍的小天使 – 主內手足們來安尉、鼓勵我。
我心裡相信、很快的、我就會知道上帝要我走的下一步路了。
詩篇16: 11
你必將生命的道路指示我。
在你面前有滿足的喜樂；
在你右手中有永遠的福樂。
主與我同在，主必與你同在。耶穌愛你，我也愛你。
親情的愛有分父母，手足和親人之間的愛。
朋友之間的愛有分親蜜戰友，普通朋友或是老朋友，種種不同深度的愛。
最後就是上帝給我們人類、無條件的愛。
被解僱後、父親的第一句話就是：好！你就去把大學諗完或是去讀神學吧！這一句話，給了我非常的鼓勵。
母親的第一句話就是：你還好吧？怎麼了？來，講給我聽怎麼樣。手足們的第一句話都是：不要怕，更不要難過，這是主的旨意，主有更好的安排，我們會支持你的。
第一位知道我被解僱的是住在加拿大的戰友隊長 Alfred 弟兄。 第二位知道我被解僱的是我的妹妹路敏。
第三位知道我被解僱的是灣區詩班員加戰友 Jacky 弟兄。
之後，有遠從香港，加拿大及近在舊金山灣區的朋友，弟兄姊妹們給了我不少的鼓勵與支持。這些全都是主給我的愛。
我不能說我沒有難過或是頹喪，但每一次我要開始亂想或是灰心時，神就用衪自己的話語或是在我身傍的小天使 – 主內手足們來安尉、鼓勵我。
我心裡相信、很快的、我就會知道上帝要我走的下一步路了。
詩篇16: 11
你必將生命的道路指示我。
在你面前有滿足的喜樂；
在你右手中有永遠的福樂。
主與我同在，主必與你同在。耶穌愛你，我也愛你。
Monday, June 4, 2007
我終於買到了 Star Wars 的郵票
我終於買到了 Star Wars 的郵票囉。
還記得我第一次看 Star Wars 是跟二舅與大姊一齊在新竹的電影院看的。 那時候我才十一歲。 其實對 Star Wars 的故事內容早己忘記，只記得有個 Luke Skywalker, Darth Vader, Han Solo 和一些其它電影故事人物。
第二次看 Star Wars 己經是好多年後在三藩市的 Cornet 電影院看的。 還記得那天晚上，我們全家去 Round Table Pizza 去吃 Pizza。
回家的路程上就看到了有好多人在排長龍，也不知道這麼多人是在排什麼長龍。後來抬頭一看，原來這條龍就是要看 Star Wars Return of the Jedi 的 午夜啊阿。 嘩！這條龍不得了哦，因為它的終點就在起點的幾碼前啊！
後來，爸媽問我們想不想看這部電影。小孩子的我們就立刻說要，就立刻的排起隊了。排了好久，可能是半個或是一個小時後，我們 (大姊、弟弟、小妹和我) 終於 進了電影院。 坐下後沒多久，電影就開始了。
其實現在回想一下，爸媽放心給我們四兄弟姊妹一齊去看午夜場，他們真得很放得下心，信任我們才會給我們看這場電影。 再說，那時候的一張電影票也不便宜 (好像是五或是六元一張票) 更不要說是四張票囉！
憶兒時，真是回味無窮。
感謝主，給我一個可愛的家。給了我一位愛主的嚴父，溫柔又愛我的母親，大方又關心我的姊姊，忠心又愛嗃笑的弟弟，支持我又常常聽我講心事的妹妹。再加上一位後來加入我們家庭，這位非常有愛心又從不生氣的姊夫。還有當然不可以少的 Isaac 我的心肝和 Jeremiah 我的寶貝。
我們以主為家，愛主更深。
願主也祝福你和你一家人。以馬內利。
還記得我第一次看 Star Wars 是跟二舅與大姊一齊在新竹的電影院看的。 那時候我才十一歲。 其實對 Star Wars 的故事內容早己忘記，只記得有個 Luke Skywalker, Darth Vader, Han Solo 和一些其它電影故事人物。
第二次看 Star Wars 己經是好多年後在三藩市的 Cornet 電影院看的。 還記得那天晚上，我們全家去 Round Table Pizza 去吃 Pizza。
回家的路程上就看到了有好多人在排長龍，也不知道這麼多人是在排什麼長龍。後來抬頭一看，原來這條龍就是要看 Star Wars Return of the Jedi 的 午夜啊阿。 嘩！這條龍不得了哦，因為它的終點就在起點的幾碼前啊！
後來，爸媽問我們想不想看這部電影。小孩子的我們就立刻說要，就立刻的排起隊了。排了好久，可能是半個或是一個小時後，我們 (大姊、弟弟、小妹和我) 終於 進了電影院。 坐下後沒多久，電影就開始了。
其實現在回想一下，爸媽放心給我們四兄弟姊妹一齊去看午夜場，他們真得很放得下心，信任我們才會給我們看這場電影。 再說，那時候的一張電影票也不便宜 (好像是五或是六元一張票) 更不要說是四張票囉！
憶兒時，真是回味無窮。
感謝主，給我一個可愛的家。給了我一位愛主的嚴父，溫柔又愛我的母親，大方又關心我的姊姊，忠心又愛嗃笑的弟弟，支持我又常常聽我講心事的妹妹。再加上一位後來加入我們家庭，這位非常有愛心又從不生氣的姊夫。還有當然不可以少的 Isaac 我的心肝和 Jeremiah 我的寶貝。
我們以主為家，愛主更深。
願主也祝福你和你一家人。以馬內利。
Sunday, June 3, 2007
Homesick
Do you like this painting? I painted this several years ago after I had returned from Italia.
I have been feeling kind of blah and actually starting to feel "homesick" now.
Feeling "homesick" because my Mom, Ruth, Isaac and Jeremiah will be visiting my grandparents next week and I can't go with them. Feeling "homesick" because I want to go back to my 3rd home - Italia.
I last visited Italy back in 2002 and my trip to Italy is long overdue. I missed Italia.
I miss the "air" of Italia - the espresso Roma, the sunflower Tuscana, the salty Venezia, the sunkissed Capri, and the scholarly Firenze.
I miss people watching in Italy. I could spend hours just hanging out by Piazza di Spagna and people watch.
I miss the art in Italy. I could spend hour just looking at David, a master piece of Michelangelo's.
I miss the unique sounds of Italy. I could stand in front of Fontana di Trevi or by Piazza Navona and listen to the water flowing down from these fountains.
I miss the history of Italy. I can spend a whole day just exploring every inch of the Colosseo, Foro Romano, Pantheon, and the Catacombe. Where is Russell Crowe?
I miss the food in Italy - the yummy glelato from Firenze, the mouth watering seafood from Venezia, the delicious pastas from Roma and the soul awaking espresso from Capri.
In Italia, my entire being becomes alive! L'ltalia e fantastica. Questo e il paradiso. Ciao bella! One day, I shall see you again.
Saturday, June 2, 2007
My beloved
This is Isaac, one of my beloved nephews. Jeremiah is my other beloved nephew. I took this picture today while we were riding BART. This morning, his mother (my sister Ruth) told me that there was this special free program that we can ride BART for free until 1 PM so we asked Isaac whether he wanted to go for a BART ride or a bike ride in the park. He wanted BART. So, Ruth, Jeremiah, Isaac and I went for a BART ride. We took the Concord/Pittsbury line and we went all the way to Pittsbury then back home.
It was fun riding BART with him because he told me everything he knew about BART, including not to stand too close to the edge of a platform because I could get suck under the train. It was interesting to see how fast and how much things he has learned. It was most interesting to see how much he has grown in the past 4.5 years. I could still remember the first time I saw him and I felt head over heel in love with him right there and then. I could just watch him play, sleep or eat 24/7 and still be amazed of how sweet, gentle and beautiful he is while being very stubborn. I love him.
Perhaps this is how God sees us through Christ. We are all sinful and stubborn little children to God but He still finds us lovable through the blood of Christ. He loves us and we are His beloved. James Taylor is so right when he sang "How sweet it is to be loved by You."
How sweet it is to be loved by our God.
Oh, hey, I love you too.... Peace!
Thursday, May 31, 2007
A Very Blessed Day
Another blessed day
Today was another blessed day. Actually, everyday should be a blessed day. While I was at the counseling session, I got a message from 阿叔。 I was so surprised that he had called me. So sweet! So, when I arrived at home, my Mom told me that a Michael Lee had called me and he’s left me a phone number to call him. Nice! So I called him. We talked for nearly 30 minutes and we just talked about everything. It was so good to be able to talk to him coz I missed him a lot. Actually, I really missed all the brothers and sisters of ACM, whether it is ACM HK, Canada, LA or even locally in the Bay Area.
I told him that he called me when I was at my counseling session therefore I had missed his call. He was very concern that I am in counseling session but I assured him that I am going through Christian counseling so it’s all good. God is refining me and molding me so that He may put me to good use one of these days.
At the counseling session, I was asked which person I could most identify with, the younger brother or the older brother in the parable of the Prodigal Son (Luke 15:11-32). Frankly, I can most identify with the younger brother because I too have lived a very crazy life before accepting Christ as my personal Savior. Then, my counselor asked if there’s anything about the big brother that I can identify myself with. Guess what? I could. I could not believe that I was also a bit self-centered, self-righteous and self-worshipping sometimes. OMG! I too can get jealous easily. I could also be attention seeking and I am definitely guilty of being prideful. There’s just so much I need to learn and I feel so shameful of my unseen sins.
I thank the Lord that He is like the father of the Prodigal Son. My Lord loves me unconditionally and I don’t need to earn His love. He loves me just as I am through Christ, who died on the cross for me. This is grace, the amazing grace. Praise God! Praise Him!
Today was another blessed day. Actually, everyday should be a blessed day. While I was at the counseling session, I got a message from 阿叔。 I was so surprised that he had called me. So sweet! So, when I arrived at home, my Mom told me that a Michael Lee had called me and he’s left me a phone number to call him. Nice! So I called him. We talked for nearly 30 minutes and we just talked about everything. It was so good to be able to talk to him coz I missed him a lot. Actually, I really missed all the brothers and sisters of ACM, whether it is ACM HK, Canada, LA or even locally in the Bay Area.
I told him that he called me when I was at my counseling session therefore I had missed his call. He was very concern that I am in counseling session but I assured him that I am going through Christian counseling so it’s all good. God is refining me and molding me so that He may put me to good use one of these days.
At the counseling session, I was asked which person I could most identify with, the younger brother or the older brother in the parable of the Prodigal Son (Luke 15:11-32). Frankly, I can most identify with the younger brother because I too have lived a very crazy life before accepting Christ as my personal Savior. Then, my counselor asked if there’s anything about the big brother that I can identify myself with. Guess what? I could. I could not believe that I was also a bit self-centered, self-righteous and self-worshipping sometimes. OMG! I too can get jealous easily. I could also be attention seeking and I am definitely guilty of being prideful. There’s just so much I need to learn and I feel so shameful of my unseen sins.
I thank the Lord that He is like the father of the Prodigal Son. My Lord loves me unconditionally and I don’t need to earn His love. He loves me just as I am through Christ, who died on the cross for me. This is grace, the amazing grace. Praise God! Praise Him!
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
A Relaxing Day
A Relaxing Day
I had a pretty blessed and relaxing day today and I feel very productive. I had my car's engine oil changed, got my hair done, had dinner with Louise, spotted Claura then joined her for deserts and gave a fright to Carmen who was sitting in her car reviewing her discipleship teaching material.
Before I went out to get all the above stuff done, I was online doing stuff for the coming IW - ACM September tour and chatting with 4 people online simultaneously. At which point, I noticed that Rev. Mak was online. So I YM'ed him and he replied. It was so nice to be able to chat with him for just a brief moment because I didn't even get a chance to sit next to him to have a good talk during our entire Edmonton/Chicago trip. I sat next to him for a few times but those were all during mealtime. I missed talking to him. He was also sick during the trip so he didn't really have a lot of energy to talk.
Rev. Mak is one pastor whom I love dearly. I don't mind telling people that I first met him when I was probably 8 or 9 years old and when he was my big brother back at 九龍城崇真堂 moons ago. When I met him again in 2002 during CM2002, I actually didn't recognized his face but could only recall his name. The first think that pop-up in my head when I recalled him was what the kids in my youth fellowship used to call him (樹哥哥).
I was able to YM him for a bit and he said that he's not sick anymore but jetlagging. I hope that he'll come back to US soon. I have learned so much from him and have gain so much respect for him because of his passion for Christ.
Janet is still sick though. I hope she'll get better soon.
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
You'll be in My Heart
You’ll be in My Heart
My dear anchor (Patrick) from Hong Kong sent me a MP4 file containing a song this afternoon. The name of this song is “You’ll be in my heart” by Phil Collins. It’s a very popular Disney song from the motion picture Tarzan and the lyrics is very touching.
He knows that I am going through some rough time in some uncharted water and he sensed that I needed support. So, he sent me this song to let me know that I am in his heart and he prays for me. I feel so loved because I have loved ones thinking and praying for me and some of them like Patrick lives more than 8351 miles away from me.
God is so good to me for giving me this dear friend. God has also given me another young friend in Toronto who is always so cheerful, sweet and always so caring to me. My dear young friend (Janet) is not feeling well today and she said she might be sick again from the bug she caught while in Edmonton..
“Dear Lord, please be with all of my dear friends whether they are in Hong Kong, Los Angeles, Edmonton, Chicago, Toronto or locally in San Francisco Bay Area. Father, I ask that You would be with them and watch over them at all times. Heal their physical pains if they are suffering and nurture their broken spirit with Your Word if they are broken hearted. Thank You for Your sacrificial love so that all of us may learn the true meaning of love. I love them and they are also in my heart. I love You because You are my Lord and my God. In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen.”
So here's the lyrics of the song and it goes like this …
Come; stop your crying it will be all right. Just take my hand, hold it tight. I will protect you from all around you. I will be here, don't you cry.
My dear anchor (Patrick) from Hong Kong sent me a MP4 file containing a song this afternoon. The name of this song is “You’ll be in my heart” by Phil Collins. It’s a very popular Disney song from the motion picture Tarzan and the lyrics is very touching.
He knows that I am going through some rough time in some uncharted water and he sensed that I needed support. So, he sent me this song to let me know that I am in his heart and he prays for me. I feel so loved because I have loved ones thinking and praying for me and some of them like Patrick lives more than 8351 miles away from me.
God is so good to me for giving me this dear friend. God has also given me another young friend in Toronto who is always so cheerful, sweet and always so caring to me. My dear young friend (Janet) is not feeling well today and she said she might be sick again from the bug she caught while in Edmonton..
“Dear Lord, please be with all of my dear friends whether they are in Hong Kong, Los Angeles, Edmonton, Chicago, Toronto or locally in San Francisco Bay Area. Father, I ask that You would be with them and watch over them at all times. Heal their physical pains if they are suffering and nurture their broken spirit with Your Word if they are broken hearted. Thank You for Your sacrificial love so that all of us may learn the true meaning of love. I love them and they are also in my heart. I love You because You are my Lord and my God. In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen.”
So here's the lyrics of the song and it goes like this …
Come; stop your crying it will be all right. Just take my hand, hold it tight. I will protect you from all around you. I will be here, don't you cry.
For one so small, you seem so strong. My arms will hold you, keep you safe and warm. This bond between us can't be broken. I will be here, don't you cry.
'Cause you'll be in my heart, yes, you'll be in my heart, from this day on, now and forever more. You'll be in my heart, no matter what they say, you'll be here in my heart, always.
Why can't they understand the way we feel? They just don't trust what they can't explain. I know we're different but, deep inside us we're not that different at all.
And you'll be in my heart, yes, you'll be in my heart, from this day on, now and forever more.
Don't listen to them 'Cause what do they know? We need each other, to have, to hold. They'll see in time, I know.
When destiny calls you, you must be strong. I may not be with you but you've got to hold on. They'll see in time, I know. We'll show them together.
'Cause you'll be in my heart, yes, you'll be in my heart, from this day on, now and forever more. Oh, you'll be in my heart, no matter what they say, you'll be in my heart, always, always.
Monday, May 28, 2007
A poem I wrote
I was cleaning up my computer this evening and I found a poem that I had written several years back, which I had completely forgotton about. Here it is and I hope you'll like it.
你的雙手
劉路加
創造宇宙的雙手，是給我生命的雙手。
這雙美麗的手，是愛我聖潔的上帝。
順服愛我的雙手，是釘在十架上的神。
給我自由的主，是領我出幽谷的主。
我的生命，因你手上的痕跡
在絕望時得盼望，在難過時得安慰，在傷心時得痊癒，
在病痛時得醫治，在害怕時得擁抱，在驚慌時得平安。
如一匹畫布，你塗上了美麗的雲彩。
如一匹畫布，你劃上了生命的意義。
我要讚美你的名，讚美你聖潔的名，
我要歌頌那雙創造宇宙的手，
我要傳揚那雙溫柔慈愛的手。
給了我喜樂，引我走義路。
美麗的雙手，是耶穌的雙手。
偉大的雙手，是上帝的雙手。
劉路加
創造宇宙的雙手，是給我生命的雙手。
這雙美麗的手，是愛我聖潔的上帝。
順服愛我的雙手，是釘在十架上的神。
給我自由的主，是領我出幽谷的主。
我的生命，因你手上的痕跡
在絕望時得盼望，在難過時得安慰，在傷心時得痊癒，
在病痛時得醫治，在害怕時得擁抱，在驚慌時得平安。
如一匹畫布，你塗上了美麗的雲彩。
如一匹畫布，你劃上了生命的意義。
我要讚美你的名，讚美你聖潔的名，
我要歌頌那雙創造宇宙的手，
我要傳揚那雙溫柔慈愛的手。
給了我喜樂，引我走義路。
美麗的雙手，是耶穌的雙手。
偉大的雙手，是上帝的雙手。
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Why do churches exist?
One of many reasons our churches exist is because of all the Non-members.
What do you think of this statement? My pastor said it today and I agree with him.
When I woke up this morning, my heart was kind of heavy and I was beginning to worry about many things. I doubted whether or not I did the right thing by coming forth to dedicate my life to serve the Living Lord full time. I started to worry about finances. My head started to hurt so turned on my car CD and listened to a CD copy of the Toronto “Unimaginable” tour. I started to sing “Holy, Holy, Holy” and scenes from the Chicago tour came to me.
Scenes like Gladys and Carmen being at the front of the marching line, Jacky and Karson carrying the big heart, Steven and Louise crying and hugging me at the front of the church, Ah-Suk’s almost inaudible sharing, and Maggie’s mouthing “I love you” to me when I went back to the sound booth. Everyone single one of these scenes was filled with passion and each was responses to the love of Christ.
When I went to Church today, Pastor Tony's sermon was “Glorifying God in Outreach” and he selected Luke 20:19-23 as today’s sermon passage. Tony focused on verse 21.
“So Jesus said to them again, “Peace to you! As the Father has sent Me, I also send you.” Luke 20:21
So, this is what we are all born to do. We are all born to be sent and all of us ought to be sent. Our Lord did not ask us whether or not we want to be sent but commended us that we are to be sent. Our Heavenly Father sent Christ and now Christ Himself is sending us. In other words, He’s sending me! I shall not doubt anymore! He has commended me! I am just obeying and following to what He has commended me and I shall have no worries anymore.
1) Mission is God’s plan.
2) Christ is the missionary and the sent one.
3) I am carrying His torch.
4) I am a vehicle and means of His plan.
What do you think of this statement? My pastor said it today and I agree with him.
When I woke up this morning, my heart was kind of heavy and I was beginning to worry about many things. I doubted whether or not I did the right thing by coming forth to dedicate my life to serve the Living Lord full time. I started to worry about finances. My head started to hurt so turned on my car CD and listened to a CD copy of the Toronto “Unimaginable” tour. I started to sing “Holy, Holy, Holy” and scenes from the Chicago tour came to me.
Scenes like Gladys and Carmen being at the front of the marching line, Jacky and Karson carrying the big heart, Steven and Louise crying and hugging me at the front of the church, Ah-Suk’s almost inaudible sharing, and Maggie’s mouthing “I love you” to me when I went back to the sound booth. Everyone single one of these scenes was filled with passion and each was responses to the love of Christ.
When I went to Church today, Pastor Tony's sermon was “Glorifying God in Outreach” and he selected Luke 20:19-23 as today’s sermon passage. Tony focused on verse 21.
“So Jesus said to them again, “Peace to you! As the Father has sent Me, I also send you.” Luke 20:21
So, this is what we are all born to do. We are all born to be sent and all of us ought to be sent. Our Lord did not ask us whether or not we want to be sent but commended us that we are to be sent. Our Heavenly Father sent Christ and now Christ Himself is sending us. In other words, He’s sending me! I shall not doubt anymore! He has commended me! I am just obeying and following to what He has commended me and I shall have no worries anymore.
1) Mission is God’s plan.
2) Christ is the missionary and the sent one.
3) I am carrying His torch.
4) I am a vehicle and means of His plan.
God is good... All the time.
Shalom! Peace to you!
Shalom! Peace to you!
An afternoon with my girlfriends
An afternoon with my girlfriends & their kids. 
Saturday was pretty relaxing. I drove down to San Jose in the afternoon to visit my friends Joanna and John along with their kids, Ryan and Rachael. Sylvia stopped by with her two beautiful daughters Zoe and Emma and Fiona also came.
Sylvia lives in San Diego with her husband and their kids. She's up here because her sister Yvonne just had a baby and the baby is name is Luca.
Our original plan was to go visit Yvonne but because Yvonne's Mom said we had better wait, we ended up just hanging out at Joanna's place. Yvonne's baby boy is names Luca. Luca happens to also be my middle name so I was really hoping that Yvonne and Pierre would name their child Luca. Luca is Luke in Italian and it means "Light."
We spent time talking and just enjoying each others' company. We talked about what's going on in our lives and updated one another of what's new. We also watched the kids played and fought over which bike to ride or what toys to play. It was relaxing because I was able to share with them my most recent decision and my most current employment situation. I gave Joanna a haircut and she bought me a "Thank You" dinner at the Macaroni Grill.
In all, it was a good day today and I thank God that I have so many friends around me to cheer me up. I was a bit down this morning but felt a lot better after hanging out with my girlfriends and their kids. I also received an email from my Angel.
Saturday was pretty relaxing. I drove down to San Jose in the afternoon to visit my friends Joanna and John along with their kids, Ryan and Rachael. Sylvia stopped by with her two beautiful daughters Zoe and Emma and Fiona also came.
Sylvia lives in San Diego with her husband and their kids. She's up here because her sister Yvonne just had a baby and the baby is name is Luca.
Our original plan was to go visit Yvonne but because Yvonne's Mom said we had better wait, we ended up just hanging out at Joanna's place. Yvonne's baby boy is names Luca. Luca happens to also be my middle name so I was really hoping that Yvonne and Pierre would name their child Luca. Luca is Luke in Italian and it means "Light."
We spent time talking and just enjoying each others' company. We talked about what's going on in our lives and updated one another of what's new. We also watched the kids played and fought over which bike to ride or what toys to play. It was relaxing because I was able to share with them my most recent decision and my most current employment situation. I gave Joanna a haircut and she bought me a "Thank You" dinner at the Macaroni Grill.
In all, it was a good day today and I thank God that I have so many friends around me to cheer me up. I was a bit down this morning but felt a lot better after hanging out with my girlfriends and their kids. I also received an email from my Angel.
Friday, May 25, 2007
Tokidoki - something in Japanese
I got this Tokidoki Spiaggia (beach) Gioco bag right before my Edmonton/Chicago short-term trip. I love this bag coz it's so cute. I love the colors and the fish. It's a great bag coz I can dump a whole lot of stuff into it. It's a very happy bag and it makes me happy because of its happy nature. I actually have a few more Tokidoki stuff so one of these days, I'll have them posted.
I feel OK today but for a few seconds, I became blue. I am still a little shocked that I was laid off on Wednesday. After getting up at around 8:45AM, I turned on my computer and sat in front of it for a long while not knowing what I was going to do for the rest of the day. I feel a little unproductive but I think it is very normal to feel unproductive. Anyway, I went to EDD and filed my unemployment ins. claim today.
Later on, I started chatting to an old co-worker and asked her how things are at work. Fine, she said. She still couldn't believe that I was laid off. Oh, well. After chatting with a couple of sister via YM, my sister called to see if I wanted to join her + my beloved (Isaac & Jeremiah) to watch them ride bike at a local park. It was good to get out of the house and to look at God's creation.
Isaac and Jeremiah give me a lot of joy. Isaac kept telling me that he loves me today and that he missed me very much while I was away. Jeremiah actually allowed me to play with him today, which to me was a big welcome surprised. You see, Isaac loves me from day 1 and Jeremiah loves my brother Joseph from day 1. The fact that he's allowed me to play with him today was a "BIG" surprise and I welcome it.
I'll take a break from working or finding work for a while. Eventually I'll have to seek the Lord and ask God what wants me to do. But for now, I'll just enjoy the long summer, play with Isaac and Jeremiah and work on the September IW - ACM Canada trip.
We need choir members... coz we have about 4 people signed up right now. ....
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Good news or bad news
There are good news and bad news everyday. So for today, the good news is that I have just heard from my friend in LA that an old friend of ours is getting married.
The bad news is that I am not his bride.
There was a time in my life that I was very much "in-love" with him. I loved everything about him including his very "strong" personality. I treasured him above many things, perhaps even above God, and I was obsessed with him. So, one August afternoon moons ago, God removed my "idol" from my life.
1 John 5:21, John warned us that "Little children, keep yourselves from idols."
The truth is that we all have "idols" in our lives. Idols may include our appearance, identity, school, work, car, fashion, TV, sports, money, and etc. Sometimes our idols could be people we look up to or people we love too much. Sometimes idol appears to be an intangible form such as self-esteem, attention, acceptance, etc. If I am not zealous for God, then am I "idol-ing" something else? Is this right?
I am very happy that my old friend is getting married and I am so glad that I am not his bride.
For I know that my groom awaits for me somewhere else.
The bad news is that I am not his bride.
There was a time in my life that I was very much "in-love" with him. I loved everything about him including his very "strong" personality. I treasured him above many things, perhaps even above God, and I was obsessed with him. So, one August afternoon moons ago, God removed my "idol" from my life.
1 John 5:21, John warned us that "Little children, keep yourselves from idols."
The truth is that we all have "idols" in our lives. Idols may include our appearance, identity, school, work, car, fashion, TV, sports, money, and etc. Sometimes our idols could be people we look up to or people we love too much. Sometimes idol appears to be an intangible form such as self-esteem, attention, acceptance, etc. If I am not zealous for God, then am I "idol-ing" something else? Is this right?
I am very happy that my old friend is getting married and I am so glad that I am not his bride.
For I know that my groom awaits for me somewhere else.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Got laid off today
I got laid off today!
Personally, I think God is very funny. Only a few days ago, I dedicated my life to serve God full time in Chicago. So for the past few days, I've been asking God a simple question - now that I have dedicated my life to serve You, where am I to go now and what am I to do now. I was still working as a trial consultant this morning so I had no idea what, where, when and how I was going to walk this unique path that God has made for me.
Actually, this whole thing is funny. I still remembered kind of smiling when my boss Dave Weinberg told me that I was being laid off. I was smiling because I can see His mighty hands moving. I was smiling because I know that God, Himself is doing things in my life right now.
To say that I was not upset or mad, I'd be lying. I was mad and I was very upset. I started to cry so I called up Alfred, Maria (my sister), Joanna (my friend), Patrick (my little bro), Patrick Fung (my anchor) and Jacky (my angle). Alfred was shocked when he learned of my laid off. Maria was surprised that I was laid off but was happy that I was finally free from a not-too-ideal work environment. Joanna asked me to give her my updated resume so that she can help me find my next best job. Patrick said he'll pray for me and encouraged me not to be sad. My anchor asked me to start thinking about re-writing my ACM USA proposal. My angle bought another angle to cheer me up. Later on, I received phone calls from Janet, Elaine, Patrick, Joanna, Janet (my counselor) and emails from Alfred and Maggie.
God is good to me because I am so loved. He's bought me angles to support, encourage, cheer and pray for me.
Finally, I told my parents about me being laid off. Mom was very concern about how I feel. Dad was funny coz he just said that I should take this opportunity to take classes at a local seminary to get my degree in ministry.
God is good.... All the time!
To God be the glory!
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